whatever Posted September 15, 2015 Report Share Posted September 15, 2015 So here I am, third year of me trying in college, fact is I am going to fail this year.Good thing is that i stay all the way til the end of 2 semesters, first two colleges i left immidiately in 1 semester.Bad thing is that i passed only 2 subjects from 11. So I have to try again these other subject, i have chance this week, then next one is in January.That's is how college function in southeast europe.I'm so ashamed i have to tell my family about it. What a failure I am.After these exams i have this week i must change my habits:No more staying late, wake up at 8am every morningStudying everyday for atleast 3 hours.Working outMeditatingReading fiction/nonfictionFuck fuck fuck fuck Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Victimorthecrime Posted September 15, 2015 Report Share Posted September 15, 2015 Study hard. Don't go to parties. Think about your future. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest ChinaDoll Posted September 15, 2015 Report Share Posted September 15, 2015 I feel you, W. College can be so hard.After these exams i have this week i must change my habits:No more staying late, wake up at 8am every morningStudying everyday for atleast 3 hours.Working outMeditatingReading fiction/nonfiction I think you know what you need to do. I hope you find the strength to do it. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
whatever Posted September 15, 2015 Author Report Share Posted September 15, 2015 I can sum my college life with this quote"Self-pity is easily the most destructive of the non-pharmaceutical narcotics; it is addictive, gives momentary pleasure and separates the victim from reality." - John W. GardnerRight now I'm in failing binge, I didn't go to exam today.First day in last 10 i got proper sleep. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest ChinaDoll Posted September 15, 2015 Report Share Posted September 15, 2015 "Self-pity is easily the most destructive of the non-pharmaceutical narcotics; it is addictive, gives momentary pleasure and separates the victim from reality." - John W. GardnerI agree Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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Resolute Posted September 15, 2015 Report Share Posted September 15, 2015 I can sum my college life with this quote"Self-pity is easily the most destructive of the non-pharmaceutical narcotics; it is addictive, gives momentary pleasure and separates the victim from reality." - John W. Gardneri disagree. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
whatever Posted September 15, 2015 Author Report Share Posted September 15, 2015 Study hard. Don't go to parties. Think about your future.I don't like parties. Biggest obstacle in studying is internet, i'm kinda addicted to it. So I procrastinate with everything, doing it at last moment.i disagree.explainI should find some therapy next month! I think i can't go in life without it, i must improve!! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Victimorthecrime Posted September 15, 2015 Report Share Posted September 15, 2015 I should find some therapy next month! I think i can't go in life without it, i must improve!!That's the spirit. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Resolute Posted September 16, 2015 Report Share Posted September 16, 2015 explainself-pity -among other things- is what sets us apart from lower life forms. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest ChinaDoll Posted September 16, 2015 Report Share Posted September 16, 2015 self-pity -among other things- is what sets us apart from lower life forms.I thought Philosophy did. Animals get depressed too... (but I'm not knowledgeable in the area) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Resolute Posted September 16, 2015 Report Share Posted September 16, 2015 1- I thought Philosophy did. 2- Animals get depressed too... (but I'm not knowledgeable in the area)1- yes, intelligence is what separates us from animals etc., and self pity is an essential result of that intelligence.2- i've heard about animal depression too, and although i'm no expert in that area either, i can still assure you it's not because they pity themselves, etc.. animals can't have existential depression, or self image issues, and so on. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
whatever Posted September 16, 2015 Author Report Share Posted September 16, 2015 self-pity -among other things- is what sets us apart from lower life forms.Inventing Alcohol, cigarettes also seperates us from animals. So are alcohol abusers okay? Hell no.Just as self pity is bad form of using your inteligence. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Resolute Posted September 16, 2015 Report Share Posted September 16, 2015 Inventing Alcohol, cigarettes also seperates us from animals. So are alcohol abusers okay? Hell no.Just as self pity is bad form of using your inteligence.substance users/abusers turn off their brains, essentially turning into animals, whereas with self-pity, the mind is still present. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
whatever Posted September 18, 2015 Author Report Share Posted September 18, 2015 I'm getting wellbutrin xr and xanax. Finnaly, some relief... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
whatever Posted September 19, 2015 Author Report Share Posted September 19, 2015 On wednesday i should tell my mother about this year failure in college. She is coming back from vacation.Im so fucking terrified of her reaction, her disappointment in me, i lied to her!Im just a one fucking lazy coward, nothing else.LAZY FUCKING COWARD. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
whatever Posted September 19, 2015 Author Report Share Posted September 19, 2015 I can relate. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
whatever Posted September 19, 2015 Author Report Share Posted September 19, 2015 Piece of shit that is what is what i'm. For this 22 years of my life i didn't do any good. Fucking parasite. Fucking spoiled brat. Ive taken too many things for granted. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Victimorthecrime Posted September 19, 2015 Report Share Posted September 19, 2015 I bet you'll turn it around. Connect w your pride. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mts Posted September 19, 2015 Report Share Posted September 19, 2015 What do you mean parasite? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Victimorthecrime Posted September 19, 2015 Report Share Posted September 19, 2015 A lot of guys feel bad, feel like they have taken advantage of their parent's good nature, if they have not found gainful employment by the time they leave college. Me and just about everyone I know went through that. That might be what whatever is referring to. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
whatever Posted September 19, 2015 Author Report Share Posted September 19, 2015 @mtsVoBN1c said what i meant. http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=parasitic+lifestyle Victimorthecrime 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
whatever Posted September 19, 2015 Author Report Share Posted September 19, 2015 I'm feeling better now. I think/feel this will even be a good thing after all. Or is just my crazy mood swings i'm having.I'm also quiting cigarettes. They can be pleasure but my mental health and money are far more important now. It will be much easier to stay away from cigarettes when i get wellbutrin.Damn i want to feel combination of wellbutrin and meditation, how it will affect my brain. I have already been doing bodyweight exercises for 5, 6 months, but it ain't enough. Also i will continue going to swimming once a week. Victimorthecrime 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
whatever Posted September 21, 2015 Author Report Share Posted September 21, 2015 I just have read some article on AD(H)D. I definetly don't have it.So my underachievment is only because of my laziness and depression.I'm type of person who will all day think about what i have to do, i think about being productive, i really want to be productive, but when i wake up, things start to go in the wrong way. As minutes and hours pass feelings of guilt and shame arise and i become more unable to do what is right.So i compensate for it, i do my workout, i do some of my hobbies, read some article i bookmarked, make myself some nice meal, but never that thing which is MOST IMPORTANT- TO FUCKING GO STUDYING! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
whatever Posted September 21, 2015 Author Report Share Posted September 21, 2015 Fuck.If this college year go wrong again, I will commit suicide in June 2016. No other way for me. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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