Victimorthecrime Posted February 14, 2015 Author Report Share Posted February 14, 2015 'come to jesus' meeting.We had the come to Jesus meeting and it went better than I expected but I just don't trust this woman nor do I like the job much anymore. It's kind of day to day right now. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Resolute Posted February 14, 2015 Report Share Posted February 14, 2015 i don't wanna hijack your thread, but i don't wanna start a separate one.i'm currently in a situation (financially for the most part, but all other areas have gone to hell too) where it's just a matter of time before the hammer comes down and finishes me off. 2014 and 2015 have been the worst of my entire shitty existence, and only getting worse. sometimes it occurs to me that i must be in denial, at least a little, otherwise, how can i not have gone completely insane under this immense pressure? how can i still make jokes, and have a sense of humor? how can i even sleep (sometimes)?i really wish euthanasia, or assisted suicide was openly available to most adults. Victimorthecrime 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Victimorthecrime Posted February 14, 2015 Author Report Share Posted February 14, 2015 i don't wanna hijack your thread, but i don't wanna start a separate one.i'm currently in a situation (financially for the most part, but all other areas have gone to hell too) where it's just a matter of time before the hammer comes down and finishes me off. 2014 and 2015 have been the worst of my entire shitty existence, and only getting worse. sometimes it occurs to me that i must be in denial, at least a little, otherwise, how can i not have gone completely insane under this immense pressure? how can i still make jokes, and have a sense of humor? how can i even sleep (sometimes)?i really wish euthanasia, or assisted suicide was openly available to most adults.Don't worry about hijacking, no problem. I am not sure what happened but it sure sounds like it sucks. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Resolute Posted February 14, 2015 Report Share Posted February 14, 2015 it sure does. and thanks. Victimorthecrime 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mts Posted February 14, 2015 Report Share Posted February 14, 2015 Seriously what on earth is a come to Jesus meeting? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mts Posted February 14, 2015 Report Share Posted February 14, 2015 i'm currently in a situation (financially for the most part, but all other areas have gone to hell too) where it's just a matter of time before the hammer comes down and finishes me off. 2014 and 2015 have been the worst of my entire shitty existence, and only getting worse. sometimes it occurs to me that i must be in denial, at least a little, otherwise, how can i not have gone completely insane under this immense pressure? how can i still make jokes, and have a sense of humor? how can i even sleep (sometimes)?What's the hammer? (If it's not too personal) I live in denial too a bit I think. Sometimes it's the only way to cope.Since you mentioned being in three countries, and talking to lots of people, does that mean you "lived well" in the past? Because the hardest thing is when someone had something then had it all taken away.Personally I've never lived particularly well in my adult life, so I'm kind of used to it in a sense. Although the last few years are the only ones I spent in complete poverty. (Unable to eat etc) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Victimorthecrime Posted February 14, 2015 Author Report Share Posted February 14, 2015 Seriously what on earth is a come to Jesus meeting?LOL it's an expression derived from old time Christianity kind of like what we would call an intervention where a wayward sinner such as a promiscuous woman whose carnal depravity incited lust and pleasures of the flesh to a degree that quicken the return of Satan and...anyway this person would be invited to accept Christ as their personal savior and lord of their life and refusing such an offer would be cast out of the flock except for possibly Saturday night. mts 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mts Posted February 14, 2015 Report Share Posted February 14, 2015 LOL it's an expression derived from old time Christianity kind of like what we would call an intervention where a wayward sinner such as a promiscuous woman whose carnal depravity incited lust and pleasures of the flesh to a degree that quicken the return of Satan and...anyway this person would be invited to accept Christ as their personal savior and lord of their life and refusing such an offer would be cast out of the flock except for possibly Saturday night.This made me laugh. Victimorthecrime 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mts Posted February 14, 2015 Report Share Posted February 14, 2015 Do they try and use all this Religious stuff to make you feel bad? Luckily this kind of thing doesn't go on in the UK, or not that I'm aware of. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Victimorthecrime Posted February 14, 2015 Author Report Share Posted February 14, 2015 Oh not religious per se just language that apes it's tone like professing "I want to be a valuable contributor to our team" "thank you for the opportunity" and other such nonsense. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Victimorthecrime Posted February 14, 2015 Author Report Share Posted February 14, 2015 mts - from what I read on the internet and hear on broadcast reports, the welfare system in England is fairly robust. Have you been able to utilize it? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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Victimorthecrime Posted February 14, 2015 Author Report Share Posted February 14, 2015 I am just gonna hang in there and milk 'em for cash as long as I can or until I find another way. Job hopping is not the answer because all these places are the same. And yes corporations love socialism because so long as they comply w government regulators it cements their market share by blocking new entrants into the market place because start ups cannot afford all the lawyers, accountants, and compliance officers needed to keep the bureaucrats happy. If I could do over again I would never have stepped foot in a corporation. Instead I would have joined any kind of union or maybe started some kind of really small business that just generated enough revenue to pay the bills. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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Victimorthecrime Posted February 14, 2015 Author Report Share Posted February 14, 2015 I really hope you get the unemployment mts. Try to research on the internet what the likely questions are and have your presentation and answers memorized. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest --- Posted February 14, 2015 Report Share Posted February 14, 2015 Good luck, mts. Hope you can find something, wish I had better advice. mts 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Resolute Posted February 15, 2015 Report Share Posted February 15, 2015 What's the hammer? (If it's not too personal) I live in denial too a bit I think. Sometimes it's the only way to cope.Since you mentioned being in three countries, and talking to lots of people, does that mean you "lived well" in the past? Because the hardest thing is when someone had something then had it all taken away.Personally I've never lived particularly well in my adult life, so I'm kind of used to it in a sense. Although the last few years are the only ones I spent in complete poverty. (Unable to eat etc)the hammer is several things. i could become homeless, starve, utilities cut off, and some other things i can't discuss. it's just a matter of time, and the anticipation is killing me.i've lived in more than three countries, but never lived "well". there were a couple of years in my childhood that were less shitty, but the rest has all been hell, though a fluctuating and evolving type of hell, which is the best kind. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Victimorthecrime Posted February 15, 2015 Author Report Share Posted February 15, 2015 the hammer is several things. i could become homeless, starve, utilities cut offIf this is too personal just tell me to pipe down but these sound like financial problem that could potentially be remedied by a steady income. You are in the USA right resolute? Maybe just find a job, thru a staffing agency if necessary. Just trying to help... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Resolute Posted February 15, 2015 Report Share Posted February 15, 2015 If this is too personal just tell me to pipe down but these sound like financial problem that could potentially be remedied by a steady income. You are in the USA right resolute? Maybe just find a job, thru a staffing agency if necessary. Just trying to help...just getting out of bed (when i can even sleep), or taking a shower is challenging enough for me, working outside the house, and/or keeping "regular" hours is impossible for me. i'd work at home if i could, wasn't able to find anything. oh, and pipe down, lol.on a side note, anyone who knows where i can get my hands on some cyanide pills, or any other truly effective substance, don't hesitate to p.m. me. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Victimorthecrime Posted February 15, 2015 Author Report Share Posted February 15, 2015 just getting out of bed (when i can even sleep), or taking a shower is challenging enough for me, working outside the house, and/or keeping "regular" hours is impossible for me. i'd work at home if i could, wasn't able to find anything. oh, and pipe down, lol.Oh wow dude I did not realize it was that bad. Keep looking for the WAH it's out there. Oh and my pipe's been down for far too long already yuck yuck But seriously sometimes breaking a problem into smaller steps can increase one's confidence. Like registering w a temp agency you can tell them your limitations (hours, distance, type of work) and can turn down assignments. Just a thought. I know it's beyond brutal out there. I am sitting here on a Sunday dreading going into that hell hole of a job tomorrow. I am seriously racking my brain over what to do if I get shit canned. Or even what to do if I stay, how to stay mentally and emotionally sound. It's a no win. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Resolute Posted February 15, 2015 Report Share Posted February 15, 2015 thanks victim, and i hope your work situation improves as well.Oh and my pipe's been down for far too long already yuck yucklol. mine often gets up, but i have no one to put it back down but myself . Victimorthecrime 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mts Posted February 15, 2015 Report Share Posted February 15, 2015 Feel a bit awkward about that godawful silly ranting I did yesterday.Things aren't so bad for me I guess. I just need some experience, plus (a lot of) mental and physical health care. I would like a job where I can just walk around or stand around listening to audiobooks and not be hassled, not sure if anyone has any suggestions (I can't be a security guard - bad legal history). I have no ambition yes but I have hobbies I love and a very kind family.What's welfare like over there btw? What about rent, and disability?Hope you can figure some things out soon V. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Victimorthecrime Posted February 15, 2015 Author Report Share Posted February 15, 2015 mts were you shamed a lot growing up? I was to some degree. You know what I mean, made to feel like you were always saying / doing the wrong thing. Feel free to speak your mind here.If guard work is out then you could try light janitorial, a groundskeeper, a door man or concierge desk, light retail job in a small shop, maybe a ticket taker of some sort or light maintenance. I am sure there is a million more. The welfare system here is only good if you have next to nothing. For single moms it can be ok, there are programs for that but for anyone else it is pretty thin. I'll be alright. As long as I have vitality I will conjure up something. Thanks for the good wishes and the same to you. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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Resolute Posted February 15, 2015 Report Share Posted February 15, 2015 I'm not sure really. there was bullying. But I was always extremely shy from day one, could not make eye contact, and 1- I had SPS at age 3. Which really had a bad 2- affect (I never know if its affect or effect) on me at school. I was also a day dreamer at school, I never listened to anything and always found it strange how interested everyone else seemed. 3- The teachers tried to fix me by making me stay after class and do extra maths, and giving me huge essays to write and take home projects for the summer. I felt like a trapped animal stuck indoors all summer, a trapped spirit, I raced to get it done with zero interest, but the worst thing was that it made me hate learning; I never developed any motivation, only the mimimul required intelligence and knowledge just to not get in trouble, even then I ignored what I learned. This "non-learning" became a habit for the rest of my life, and I always felt like everyone else was so confident. So the result of this was that I was constantly afraid to speak around others in case they found out what was wrong with me. I only started enjoying learning at 27 I think.Great ideas! 4- I reckon taking care of a forest or nature park or something might suit me.5- The work situations you and Klingsor speak of sound unbearable to me, I could never do that kind of job. 6- I guess finding a more fulfilling job isn't easy?1- holy crap mate, at 3 years old? if it's not too personal, do you mind elaborating?2- in this case it's "effect" because it's a noun, and "affect" when it's a verb.3- i'm sorry this happened to you mts, it's unfortunate when ignorant people try to "fix" or "cure" others, when they don't know what the hell they're doing.4- yes, sounds nice and relaxing.5- i concur.6- you said it mts. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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