Please don't hide, Mark. The world would be missing out on your gentle, patient nature. I hope your session goes well.

Well, the "hiding" I was talking about is mostly, hiding from life. I may not be capable of my usual volume of posts, at the moment, but I'm not going away.

But I will elaborate further. It just deserves its own blog entry. :-)

I do hope that you remember that we are here for you, too. Take care, Mark.

I know, Beth. It's just that you guys can't actually, say, get me out of bed in the morning. I value the support I get here, but about all I can use it for is to give me the strength for the changes _I_ have to make.

Even a doctor doesn't "heal" a person, you know. They give them stuff that makes it easier for them to heal themselves. Trust me, you do that, too.

I don't mean to be pushy, Mark. I was just worried.

Who said "pushy", sweety?

Your worry makes me feel valued.

I was just trying to keep that feeling of responsibility that you develop from hurting you ...

And the "heal" thing was in response to something you said elsewhere, about LE. Wanting to be the one who heals someone else leaves you holding the bag, if they don't heal. If you just offer them your help, then it won't hurt so much if they don't choose to use it, or use it to fix the wrong thing.

Mark, I don't want to annoy you, but...you are taking care of me in your own blog. Maybe it might be possible for you to consider yourself first? I do value you and hope that you allow yourself to be comforted at some point. I don't expect to heal you. I do want to be a friend back, if you'll let me. But I don't want to push if you aren't willing or ready to accept comfort and that's what I meant.

Hope this wasn't annoying.

Hope everything is going ok for you Mark.

Take care.