Things always change ☺
Its a new day.
Im happy enough, things arent perfect - but then if you dont expect them to be then it saves on any dissapointment.
Work is going so brilliantly, that Im begining to wonder why I never returned sooner - self doubt probably - ever the optimist - thats me
Gotten a challenging couple of days ahead of me. Cant hold onto pipe dreams that everything will turn out fine - the past few week ends have already taught me that one. But I can hold onto the fact that I can control my words enough not to make situations worse - especially where family members are concerned. No matter how much my insides are screaming at me that its all a wasted excercise, that my beloved older siblings are just looking for a scape goat for our pasts - in my heart I know differently so Im patiently perciviering, and just letting them say all they feel they need too. I wont bite - by joining in on their screaming and balling match of how unfair life was to them - I WONT !!!
Our childhoods were so different, that honestly at times I find it hard to sympathise or admitidly even care that some things upset my older siblings when to me they seem so minute and insignificant. I mean damn it My sis an I were proper struggling just to survive, and I know that life in a childrens home is no palace or even easy - but atleast they gotten fed, clothed, and were safe.
Found out recently that my siblings always thought I was my parents favourite child, and thought I was treated differently to them - better than them. Yeah, I was real 'special'. My papa really LOVED me.
Sorry Im whing assing - when I should be going off to work - Guess Im just feeling edgy an a little down. Nothing a bar (or two) of cadburys' on the way to work wont solve :cool:
Hope y'all have a good weekend, and have fun - even if its only a little
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