Sue... Why would you ever think we'd judge you? The last thing we'd want to do is laugh at your pain and misfortune . You've been so helpful and supportive of everyone here. If we could give back just a tenth of that, I'd be surprised. I couldn't even begin to imagine the pain you must always feel, but nevertheless, I have faith that you'll make it through this. You're very strong; you've already proved that by making it this far. Just don't ever give up. You'll find your peace.

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That sounds very scary suesue. No one is laughing. You are brave for sharing this.

Have you been able to tell the doctors about this? Any idea how it started or what is causing it?

no, cant tell them. thats a bit of the Stuff, that i cant talk about. the voices go mental at me, when i try too.

dont know whats causing it, but its why i slit my wrists last week. and part of the reason that i dope myself up as much as i do - at every damn oppertunity. coz it freaks me out.

How do you feel after sharing it here? (Do ya need me to yell at the voices for you? because I've got my good loud voice ready...)

triggered. but not too edgy. really could use a drink, and my pills. might have to get some prns, if i cant calm myself soon. want to slip.

Would distraction help? Maybe we could retreat to the bunker? Or start another game of shitball? What would sue like to do?

How's the weather where you are, by the way? We have lots and lots of rain here.

shitball sounds a good idea, maybe i will even stay with it enough to play this time.

its freezing and rainy tonight. like really really cold. i wouldnt make a very good eskimo.

freezing cold? Do you guys have "snuggies" in england? Thy're like this blanket with sleeves. Here are some youtube paradoies of snuggie commercials:

(not that i would ever hold it against anyone here if they own a snuggie )

Oh that is so funny, I wanna WTF blankey. coz im not weird enough already

Here you go. Here's one that will help you blend in with the gerties:

thanks little bro

im not feeling rite. think i best go for now.

Do you need to call a nurse for help, sue? Are you safe?

not feeling rite. scared. not ok. confused. shit.shit. shit. noisey. want ot hide. cant. shit. gonna have to press the button thingy. sorry little bro.

Press the button, suesue. I'm yelling at the voices for you--loud as I can. No one hurts my big sis. Let the nurses help. Feel better soon, ok?

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