i cant imagine how wearing it must be to be living with this 'unknown'. just reading your blog makes me anxious...except in my 'B' plot movie script mind, i keep imagining you saying "i know what it is...I was abducted by aliens!"

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try not to dwell Ralph, itll just make you more anxious.

We stand with you, Ralph. Hope that helps you stand with you. I'm sorry for this pain... I hope you can do something restorative today...

I think the images are flashbacks that don't fully form, which I think is due to the meds and therapy. Not all the memories are bad, but nevertheless all seem to be pointing to something "back there" that is too complicated to put into words. I'm not sure if it even matters or if this is just my brain misfiring.

Hang in there you'll get it figured out. If it's important it will keep trying til it breaks through. If not it will subside

I hear you, Ralph. External social and therapy support helped me when the internal support for withstanding the … whatevers .. was lacking. You CAN make it. It will be OK. You will be together with yourself and able to walk and function as a whole person. It will be different, but OK.

I can see it ! Yes! there it is...the light at the end of the tunnel!

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thanks for the help, and the cat pic. It is good to have some feedback to help keep my sights on reality.