Last visit with pdoc had me up Wellbutrin as my depressive symptoms have shown improvement but still pretty depressed. Now I have intrusive thoughts again, random thoughts telling me to kill myself that interrupt my internal dialogue. Not voices that I hear externally but still seems like something "not me" issuing a command. Not sure if this is related to the med change or just stress at work which has also been high lately.
Intrusive thoughts were an issue for me before I got on meds, but they had gone away when I got on the right AAP (Abilify) along with problems of derealization/depersonalization. I understand from the therapist that helped me with PTSD that these are anxiety symptoms and are more likely for PTSD patients. I'm hoping this isn't related to the med change but I am going to watch for whether it happens on days when I take the higher dose. I've been alternating the higher dose 300mg and lower dose 150mg every other day for one week. I'm supposed to do that for 2 weeks total and then go to 300mg every day.
I wish these thoughts would go away. It's very bothersome to have someone saying these distressing things inside my head like this.