Why is it so hard to get a new start? Why do feel chained to the past? Why am I always worried? How come just living each day is so hard? Are some people just cursed? Are some people not meant for happiness?
Here are a few things I felt good about today: I got my 20 year old lawn mower started, I went for a slow jog, i did isometrics, I are red pepper and spinach, I took vitamins, i ran errands, had coffee w a friend at a new shoppe that I found that we both liked, I didn't do anything stupid like get drunk or a confrontation, fooled around on the internet, listened to the satellite radio, read a some of a novel, I was not ill except a bit of stomach queasiness and felt ever so slightly dizzy once, and I counted a small amount of cash I have saved in a drawer and my bills are paid. I tried to apply Castaneda's advice to move my assemblage point but did not get upset when I failed as I have no idea what it is or how to do it. The effort did seem to improve my mood as I just took it to mean change your attitude.