So, as we know, I am the ultimate critic and skeptic. It's pretty hard to convince me of something if I have decided it's 'stupid'. Luckily, lately, and since I have talked to my T about what I need from her, she's been much harsher with me ... Ok, I don't mean she's been treating me bad, but she's been rattling my cage pretty good. I said, you know, I am hard to convince, I don't mean any disrespect, but for me to get into something, I have to know that it's not bull crap. She listened to me for a while, going on and on about how I think this is whoo-whoo, and lala, and whatever. And then she said, ok. Well, why don't you go ahead and read this, oh and while you're at it, read this, and this. And if that's not convoncing, then we'll talk about it some more.
So I went and read. Dr this and Dr that did such and such controled, double blind experiment, and blablabla... Ok, Ok, I get it. My brain hurts. But I get it. So, yah, now I trust her. But she still continue to convince me. It's good that I met a T that's just as stubborn as I. And thank G she's not offended. I guess she has no time for it.
So, I wasn't learning my affirmations, but let me tell you, now I know them by heart. And I use them. Why? because they work.
When I use them it depends on what I am telling myself. I conteract different thoughts and beliefs about myself and the world with different affirmations. I am trying to rewire my own brain. Now, it's much easier when I can catch, just as I think it, the:
"Why am I so stupid?" or "I hate my life" etc.
I go NO! STOP! STOP! STOP! It's not true. I don't 'hate' my life? What the? It's like a battle in my mind and I am winning mooo-hahah! take that sucka! And that!
To be continued, cus I have to go to my appointment with the shoulder specialist...wish me luck