Hmm, well, as I was delaying getting out of bed this morning, I was thinking a string of bad things about myself. I'm not sure whether it would help or hurt to be specific, so I won't.
It occurred to me that, if I were to blog about the things I was telling myself, I would be sure to have many friends jumping in to tell me about all the good things I do. They wouldn't be lying. I do many things that are good; I realize that. And they would only be trying to help by telling me about them.
The problem is that it makes (part of) me quite angry to hear those responses. Sure, these feelings are negative, and might need to be countered eventually, but they're my feelings, at least some of the time. It's as if people are trying to tell me not to feel them, as if the idea of the "positive guy" having doubts throws their own situation into disarray. Listen, if any of you are building your recoveries on me being some kind of hallowed guru, I'm quite worried for you. Far better to build them on something solid, like yourselves. Perhaps this is partly the price I pay for not posting personal stuff for a while; people think I'm "okay" now. Well, I'm better, but that has its limits.
The part of me that we've just heard from is one I call "Bitter Guy". Y'all don't see him on the forums much, because as you can see, he isn't really all that supportive. But he's in there, nevertheless, and I think he sometimes feels slighted because I don't show him to you very often.
Not really sure where I'm going with this; I just thought you ought to know there's more to me than you've seen elsewhere.