i just feel lonely right now. everything that goes through my head is making me cry more. i should go sleep and stop thinking. i just don't want to wake up.

I'm so sorry blossom

we're going to visit my granny and grandad later. i'm a little scared. i havn't been to see them in nearly a year. i just never get a chance because the only day daddy and ykw go visit them is on sunday and i'm working most sundays. i feel bad. i'm scared because daddy says they're after getting really really old especially my granny and he says she'll probably die soon and this is probably the last christmas she'll be alive for. she can barely walk or talk anymore. that's really scary. she used to talk non-stop. and now she can't talk atall.

Merry Christmas, ladies. I know (firsthand) that families can be a pain, but it's important to be with them when you can. I hope you all have the best possible day today.

merry christmas marky.

Are you okay, sweety? I know it might be hard to see your grandmother getting older, but believe me, it's better than not seeing it until after she passes. You're one of her connections to the future; I'll bet she loves seeing you today.

hey marky yeah i'm fine. it probably won't be so bad. are you ok?

It's Christmas morning! So yeah, I'm fine, too.

Did you get anything cool?

i got the friends boxset! what about you?

I got a couple of toys from Edmund Scientific from guess-who: a hovercraft that looks like a soccer ball, that you can kick around, and a little gun, like a phaser, that shoots little smoke rings. They are fun little games, and we laughed. There's not enough laughter in the world ...

Are you going to have friends over to watch Friends? :-)

they sound like fun:)

hmm probably not..

its soooooooo cold!!!

Did they put the thermostat across the room from you, again? ;-)

How many sweaters are you wearing? (I'm wearing two T-shirts, does that count?)

We're about to have a light lunch; how long before you go out?

i'm wearing two pajamas and 3 blankets. i'm in bed because i have the flu. i'll probably be going in about an hour.

hi guys, merry Christmas !!

hey starry are you having a good day?

hi blossom yeah, wound up opening presents this morning cause my dad got sick last night so I just got done with that and then the kids are coming over later. That's so cool you got friends!

When I'm cold, but I have good blankets, I'll often cover my head and breathe under the covers for a while. It helps warm things up, when you've been in bed for a long time. I'm sorry you're still not feeling well.

Hey starry, Merry Christmas. :-)

what presents did ya get? is your dad ok?

oh that's a clever idea marky, i'll try that next!

i dreamt about a dog last night..

Sorry to bug out on you, but it's lunchtime!

I might look in a bit in the afternoon.

{Was it a good dog dream?}

yeah he's fine now. I got a bunch of stuff twilight stuff clothes perfume gift cards. I got twilight scene it, do you know what that is?

bye marky. [yeah,,it was a real nice golden retriever dog an it was lying on top of me. i was lying down in a field somewhere.]

no what is it?

oh it's a game, a dvd game, like a trivia game but it has clips from the movie you watch and answer questions about but it's like a board game. I have friends scene it too. The original scene it was just a dvd game with trivia and clips from all different movies. It's really cool.

awww that sounds fun!!! how was the party last night?