Well.

I had an appointment for 3:30 this afternoon with my therapist. I had to cancel, and I'm pretty angry. But ... I need to be honest.

I made the appointment last Wednesday evening, at the last session. But I never did get a chance (that is, never made a chance) to tell anyone at work that I needed time off.

Then, Friday morning, we got an e-mail detailing a new work assignment that was due at the end of the day Monday. The problem was that the content of the assignment made me angry, so I put off doing it all day Friday.

I could also have done some work on it over the weekend, but I didn't. I didn't want to face it, possibly to find out it was even more work (or more annoying work) than I had thought.

So, I got up early this morning, and drove to work before anyone else was here. The problem with that was, I then had to wait until people arrived, in order to ask questions about it. Oh, and then, the response to my questions was pretty much, "Yeah, but do it anyway."

I really wish I could be mad at work right now. I'd like to submit a dramatic resignation, detailing just how stupid the assignment, and my everyday work for quite a large number of months now, has been.

But the reality is that much of this could have been avoided quite simply, just by letting go of my initial annoyance with the assignment and getting it done.

Now I need a nap.