Buttons Posted July 28, 2010 Report Share Posted July 28, 2010 Last week, I had to make a very difficult decision. For financial reasons, I had to stop going to therapy. After a long discussion with my therapist, we both agreed that if it was not for my financial troubles, I should be continuing with intense therapy. Nonetheless, he told me I could come back any time and that he would be there for me.Leaving therapy that day, I felt so empty. I admit, the tears started streaming down my face as soon as I walked out of his office. I felt as if part of me had died. I've been going to therapy every 1-2 weeks for 2 years now, so it is part of my routine. I tend to keep everything boxed in and it took me a lot of time to get many of my issues out, such as issues with an eating disorder and severe manipulation issues with my parents. I felt like I was finally getting somewhere as i finally trusted him. I wanted to tell him everything.I just feel a little lost right now. I've been crying off and on. All I can think is that i have no one to turn to. I do have my fiance who is super supportive, however there are some issues I still have trouble talking to him about. Also, I don't feel right dumping everything on him, as he is depressed at the moment and really doesn't need me bringing him down.Bottom line is, I am super attached to my therapist. More than I realised I guess. And I don't know what to do. How can I stop feeling so sad about this? I suppose you could say I "love" him. I don't mean that in a romantic way, but more that he's been a surrogate father, mother, and friend to me when i needed him. I still do.... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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