LaLa Posted August 30, 2010 Report Share Posted August 30, 2010 Hello, everybody,It's always so sad for me when somebody annouces s/he's going to leave this community. I don't want to leave. Not because I would suppose anybody to be sad about it (but just in case... I don't want to risk it ), but because I don't want to leave people who became so important and dear to me. But I think about "leaving" quite often, even so. Maybe I should write about it here. Maybe there will be some insightful comments, as usualy. I like so much reading about others here and learning from them, as well as from my own reactions. But it seems to me, now probably even more than before, that I don't have anything to offer. Anything but my interest and compassion. Yes, we all know it's important, too. I remebered how I felt everytime when somebody showed me his/her interest and/or compassion. But this time, it seems to me I feel mostly the despair from the fact that I can't help. I should start a thread about it in General support, shouldn't I? Called "How fo you cope with the feeling that you want to help but can't?" No, I will not. Maybe somebody else will. I write here, not being sure why, to announce I want to try to have a break to focus on my own life, the problems I tried to ignore so much knowing that I'll have to face them sooner or later. The "later" (or better: too late) has come. I need to be more focused, I need to ignore Facebook, ... and probably also eventually not to visit this page every day. Once a week would be fine (?). I will not stay in touch with the people I'd like to stay in touch with. Is it bad? Isn't it just a price I have to pay to become focused on solving my own problems? When I was thinking of this post this morning, I came to a strange "question": I don't want to hear from you any possible comments trying to convince me that "me being here wasn't naught" or that "I hepled somebody here somehow". If somebody would like to have comments on this issue, then just try to recall one memory of a concrete moment when you was thinking for a while that something I'd written was helpful. But no; this is not "an appeal"! This is only a try to prevent some possible "hazy" comments trying to tell me "why I should not leave". Maybe I just need to hear some good reasons why to leave (- as I don't want to, but maybe it would be good)!OK, I think I shoud add a context to this babble: I really need to stop with this "never-ending" procrastination, as now I have the last chance (if there really is any left!). And one of my typical activities, which substitute what I have to do, is reading and writing here.So... hopefuly, I will have a break. Not sure if it's possible, but... I had to announce it to feel that "now I really have to do it or I will look as an idiot". I think it's long enought now, so I go... Hopefully without any typical editing! I'm sure I've made a lot of mistakes, but I will leave them here as they are.I wish everybody good luck... and take care! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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