Guy Out There Posted September 14, 2010 Report Share Posted September 14, 2010 Hi everyone,I went for an appointment with the team who are treating me to see a doctor who we all thought would prescribe some meds for me and make things better. In fact he has decided i need to spend a couple of weeks in the hospital for lots of tests.Those of you who know me will know that i have bad experiences with hospital in the past when i was treated badly and it has left me in absolute fear of returning. Worse too is the fact i have to take time off work which will not look good especially because i'm trying to get back in the good books after flipping out at my boss (this included doing lots of overtime for no extra pay). I'm just feeling so stressed, so upset, what if all the things i have believed in are suddenly revealed to be just a fraud? The walls of my life i've come to live within just falling away and what is on the outside, beyond these walls? I don't know, i would feel so stupid.I don't want to go but i've agreed to go voulentry, oh that also means you won't be seeing me around for the next couple of weeks.Thanks for listening, come morning i'll be locked away, out of my comfort zone and residing in constant fear, i know i must not try and escape but this will be very hard to resist.At least they said they won't drug me, thats something positive to focus on perhaps? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Endlessnight Posted September 14, 2010 Report Share Posted September 14, 2010 Hello Guy. I'm sorry you are so worried about what might happen, and don't really know what to tell you except my thoughts will be with you. I hope everything turns out okay for you. Take care. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Solstice Posted September 14, 2010 Report Share Posted September 14, 2010 I don't have any words of wisdom, but I can certainly understand how stressed and upset you must feel. I wish you the best, and hope to hear in a couple of weeks that it all turned out far better than you can imagine right now. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
IrmaJean Posted September 14, 2010 Report Share Posted September 14, 2010 My thoughts are with you as well, Guy, and I hope this turns out okay. We will be here to offer support when you return. Take care. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
malign Posted September 14, 2010 Report Share Posted September 14, 2010 Guy, not only do I think this can turn out okay, I think that you can contribute to that outcome. Tell the team what happened to you before. It can't make things worse, and with the knowledge of why you're so uncomfortable, there's a good chance they can make it at least a little easier for you. If you hold it in, you're stuck with only the solutions you can come up with on your own.Good luck to you, and I hope you feel better afterwards. You know where to find us. :-) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
spiritual_emergency Posted September 15, 2010 Report Share Posted September 15, 2010 If it's any consolation, the first hospital my child ended up at was not a pleasant experience for anyone. However, they did have to go to some other hospitals after that and all of those hospitals were substantially better than that first one. I hope this one will be a good one for you and you'll find some effective (and non-traumatizing) help.~ Namaste Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
SweetSue Posted September 15, 2010 Report Share Posted September 15, 2010 hey Guy,good luck hun Can you take yer laptop in with you, I know that was my little luxury, last time I was admitted, and it was a godsend As far as words of wisdom go, well I dont really have any, just try and keep positive that this time round things will be ok, and keep reminding yourself its only for 2 weeks, and that time will pass soon enough. Take care Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
danni Posted September 15, 2010 Report Share Posted September 15, 2010 take care Guy. Wishing you strength and healing. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Luna- Posted September 15, 2010 Report Share Posted September 15, 2010 Guy - you've probably left already, but I wanted to wish you well there and we'll be here when you come back. I also want to second what malign said. Tell someone about your last experience and how you are worried the same sorts of things will happen again. Psychologists are usually sympathetic to this sort of thing. If you are anxious about it, tell the doctor that and why.I hope it all goes well, thinking of you. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guy Out There Posted September 20, 2010 Author Report Share Posted September 20, 2010 Hi everyone, I didn't get chance to reply before you left but i did read though all your posts and thank you all for wishing me well.As it turned out i told the nurses about my previous experiences and they made an extra effort to make me feel comfortable, at the end of my short stay i have a mixed outcome.While they haven't said what is wrong with me or the result of the tests (have to wait for those) i feel at long last all those bugs about going to hospital have at finally been put to rest.I have had a pleasant stay, so while i'm still not recieving treatment i am closer to that milestone we call 'a normal life'.I know what you say about the word 'normal' but i think for me i will know what 'normal' is because everybody has a different idea about that.. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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