Fox1990 Posted January 4, 2011 Report Share Posted January 4, 2011 This morning my mother snapped, she screamed and said awful things to me. In my mind I know she didn't mean a word she said, she was just full of rage. You see, I have the same rage. This morning I snapped back and we physically hurt each other. Although I have seen this rage before it was the first time she actually acted to harm me and me to harm her. I'm 20 and no child, I can handle myself, but this is my mother.After she left for work I wanted to crawl into a hole and die. I felt like digging my own grave, shooting myself in the head, and wasting away in the dirt.I feel like everything is unraveling even more than usual. I wrote a note this morning, you know, the 'goodbye forever' kind.I've been stuck in this position for years now, struggling to "get over" past traumatic events. I don't know where to go from here, to be quite honest I'm tired of just trying to emotionally survivie. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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