getting there Posted February 22, 2011 Report Share Posted February 22, 2011 Hi,well, have this dilemma. Thought to share it with you. I've been struggling with depression (hard to wake up and go to work, irritable with everyone, have no energy, don't want to have friends, find that being with others requires me to put on a "happy mask" which my lack of energy doesn't permit anymore....).I have support from a weekly ptherapy, put that's it. I mean I can't take care of myself, don't feel good in my isolation with the rest of the world, the only genuine, caring and supportive human contact is for 40 min a week, from a purchase of therapeutic treatment in order to keep my faith that I'm doing something to actually improve my situation, but it has been going on for 6 years.... and I'm still struggling. What's the point? I'm really fed up from clinging to things that aren't there for me, having to pay a therapist to keep my hopes alive, to keep myself feeling alive and not a walking carpet.. Maybe I should give up my expectations that I will eventually get better and quit therapy (I have economical issues), and just ACCEPT my situation.I'm only afraid that this will put me down real bad (you know,.... hope is all I have left).Really don't know what to do. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
IrmaJean Posted February 22, 2011 Report Share Posted February 22, 2011 Hi, getting there. I'm sorry you are feeling sad. Can you feel any positive movement at all with your therapy? Have you ever felt any? I would recommend bringing up your concerns with your therapist. Maybe the two of you can work together to find a means of improving your situation. I do hope you will keep trying. Best of luck and I hope you are feeling better soon. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
getting there Posted February 23, 2011 Author Report Share Posted February 23, 2011 thanks.Well in fact I did talk about it. It just turned out that my pdoc will hope for me when I don't have the strength to hope for myself.... Really tired,.... hope... as if it will solve the issue. Had a bad dream, bad days, things will turn out fine, hopefully... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
IrmaJean Posted February 23, 2011 Report Share Posted February 23, 2011 Maybe you could talk more with your pdoc about doing something proactive to change your situation? Even just trying something different might give you some sense of control in this. Hope can be a beautiful thing and it's good that pdoc holds that space for you, but you also need to work together to enable yourself to move toward it. What do you think? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest ASchwartz Posted February 23, 2011 Report Share Posted February 23, 2011 Hi Getting there,When you say pdoc, do you mean your psychiatrist or your psychotherapist. Remember, the psychiatrist gives medication.It might be that you would do better with a therapist who does Cognitive Behavioral Therapy because it is much more focused, specific, goal oriented and helps people see real changes. CBT has been found to work better with depression. Also, are you on medication for depression?Allan Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
getting there Posted February 23, 2011 Author Report Share Posted February 23, 2011 Hi Allan,was on meds years ago, got better and then gradually stopped. Seemed fine since 6 months ago. Now I wear a heavy mask of well being when I'm around others, but it started to get harder and harder to keep. So I just want to stop trying and be left alone. thnks 4 the reply. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Athena Posted February 26, 2011 Report Share Posted February 26, 2011 Did something happen 6 months ago to trigger this? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest ASchwartz Posted February 28, 2011 Report Share Posted February 28, 2011 Hi Getting There,The fact that medication once helped you is a very good sign. You did what many people do, which is to stop the medication, feel OK for several months and then fall back into depression. In my opinion, seeing your pdoc and going back on meds sounds like a good idea. Psychotherapy also. What about this?Allan Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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getting there Posted February 28, 2011 Author Report Share Posted February 28, 2011 The idea of ECT scares me a lot, never considered it. Sometimes I get looped and thinK : is my chemical imbalance due to my low and highly unsatisfactory life, isolation...ecc ore is it the cause of it? Maybe I should just stop thinking and do something... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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Athena Posted March 1, 2011 Report Share Posted March 1, 2011 I once read some advice on chronic pain, "Stop doing what's not working". Perhaps it applies here. Would you consider changing therapists or type of therapy? Perhaps some key ingredients are missing. But first, I'd want a synopsis from the current therapist where exactly he/she thinks you are presently at, and some suggestions on how to speed up the process and see if it sounds reasonable. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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