Athena Posted October 15, 2011 Report Share Posted October 15, 2011 Since Thursday I have felt like the darkness has lifted. I really don't recall slipping back into the negative thoughts, head spinning panic and hopeless despair that is my usual state of mind. I've been trying to figure out what has changed. Could it be that a few things finally went right? The supplements my Naturopath gave me? Finally feeling understood by a member of the medical profession? Engaging with a new support group? A bounce back from the traumatic events of last week? Experiencing a stark lesson about how negativity/positivity affects those around me?As I think about how it feels, it is almost like a switch went off. Not an attitude adjustment, not an individual telling me what to do, not a book, not therapy. Maybe just a bunch of hard hitting lessons in the span of a week.What is the switch? I think its kind of like when you go to a party. No matter how bad you feel, you rise to the occasion, because you know that showing up moping won't do anybody any good. You just "act happy". But it's not a complete act. For the duration, you actually ARE happy. You don't have to fake it. And yet, you did it. Maybe subconsciously, but somehow you just DECIDED to be happy and you were.Hmmmm. Could it be so simple? Something worth trying to repeat in other situations. Why should you be miserable around your kids, your significant other, your family, yourself? Why do they deserve the worst of you? It may be worth trying to give them the best of you instead. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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