Confusion with sexuality

[Thermonuclear Warrior]

Hello first things first, I do not think I'm gay, but after several posts in the SPS section on the board, I made it clear that I compare myself to other men all the time. I'd like to mention that I am completely disgusted with male/male relationships. Second, I feel that anal sex is disgusting even when heterosexual. Having taken plenty of biology courses, and even performing enemas at the hospital where I worked, I have no interest in that sorta thing....I left the profession I had altogether due to it not working with my personality. No amount of convincing with regard to connections, love or anything will ever let me expose my phallus to the bacteria that dwell in the rectum. I do not have problems with the Gays that practice anal sex and I'd like to mention that Judas Priest is one of my favorite bands of all time...I own most of their records. Can one be gay without ever kissing or engaging in sex with a man? I don't really think so..I think that'd be a conventoinal frendship if anything...

Anyway, over the past few years, I have been questioning whether I was completely heterosexual, bisexual, or homosexual altogether. I get physically aroused by larger penises in porn or in the media. This stemmed from being aroused from female reactions to large penises. I have never gotten an erection from simply looking at a man, but I have felt strange sensations in the groin area similar to arousal. I personally feel that I am more envious of the large penises than anything and that my sexuality is heterosexual. If I had to choose between actual intercourse, I'd choose a woman. However, what can be determined from my attraction to large penises? I can't even enjoy porn unless there is a penis involved.

A few friends of mine also admitted to being aroused from large penises involved in penetration. What does this mean and what does this make me?I have no desire to touch another man, but I for some reason see beauty in a large bulge, soft or erect penis. I'd really like to get over this, I feel that my only situation is to go back to like 1992 before I had a computer and be a proper gentlemen. I feel that the Internet created generations upon generations of perverts such as myself. My sense of humor is perverted and perhaps this whole large penis appreciation wouldn't be going if I was a larger or the media didn't shove the fact that bigger is better....

Edited November 22, 2011 by Thermonuclear Warrior

[AmericanPsycho]

Bi-curious maybe. Anytime I see a Wang I want to puke my guts out. I will not watch a porn if there's guys involved.

[Thermonuclear Warrior]

After reading my original post, and evaluating my personality, I think I answered my own questions. I think I'm more aroused by the woman's reaction and appreciation in adult films more than anything. I think that what I'm feeling is relatively normal at least in the 21st century. I was talking to a few of my heterosexual friends and they all admitted that adult films are boring without the dude. What does this mean? Are we all gay? Or is this sort of feeling non indicative of homosexuality?

[AmericanPsycho]

I was talking to a few of my heterosexual friends and they all admitted that adult films are boring without the dude.

That's probably because they're Jocks who play sports. If you play sports than you obviously like to be in a locker room with other guys. What do guys do around each other in a locker room, they get naked and shower together.

I'm sorry but there's no truly straight guy out there that wants to see another dude's Dong.

I must disagree about have guys in a porn movie. I find is disgusting and won't allow a porn movie in my home if there's a guy in it.

[flander]

maybe it is because you wish you were the guy in the video or were endowed like him and had the same positive reaction with women?

[AmericanPsycho]

maybe it is because you wish you were the guy in the video or were endowed like him and had the same positive reaction with women?

Don't have a clue as to who's post you're responding to BUT if it's mine you couldn't be more wrong. I wasn't born with an ego and I can care less who's pole is bigger.

[flander]

I was responding to Thermonuclear Warrior's post.

[JaiJai]

Anytime i see two chicks going at it...i'm like 'eenhh...what's the point?'

[AmericanPsycho]

why would a straight guy want to watch porn without a dude in it? Anytime i see two chicks going at it...i'm like 'eenhh...what's the point?' Interestingly, I think the big reason many straight girls fool around with other girls is because they like the reaction that it will evoke from guys. they like seeing the guys get turned on.

So being that most porn is fantasy, and I'm assuming that your a guy, AP. why would you enjoy porn that doesnt have anyone in it that you could fantasize being? -it sounds like you have vagina envy.

Got news for ya, if you fool around with someone of the same gender you're not straight.

Yes I'm a guy. Why the #### would I want to fantasize about being somebody I'm not? That and I really don't care to see any guy naked either.

Some guys just like to watch women fool around with each other but don't care to get in on the action.

[JaiJai]

Got news for ya, if you fool around with someone of the same gender you're not straight.

Thanks for clarifying.

it's all starting to make sense now.

You don't like watching straight porn, cus.....

that would make you feel gay?

Secretly, you're a clock-watcher.

(cue ominous music)

Edited December 2, 2011 by JaiJai
Inappropriate observation of time

[AmericanPsycho]

Thanks for clarifying.

it's all starting to make sense now.

You don't like watching straight porn, cus.....

that would make you feel gay?

Secretly, you're <>.

(cue ominous music)

Seeing a naked guy makes me want to vomit. Oh and you've been reported.

Edited November 27, 2011 by malign
Don't quote it if you don't want to keep reading it.

[malign]

Um, could I ask both of you to make this a bit less personal?

JaiJai, you know you're reacting out of feelings about things that aren't even connected to this thread. We need you to take that extra bit of time that allows you to separate triggers from responses. And AP, you have to admit that "Got news for ya" and the rest of what you wrote is just as accusatory as anything JaiJai said; only the words were less specific. And the whole "you've been reported" thing is just childish. I'm not on anyone's side, just because I have to respond.

This is about the original poster's concerns, not about your individual reactions to them. We're here to support, and we always have the option of not saying anything, if we find we can't do that, in a given situation.

Thanks.

[JaiJai]

TW - people check out other people all the time. its human nature.

[eppursimuove]

im sorry but JaiJai made my laugh, sometimes i would answer some post the same way like her but i just hold my self, maybe i soulndt. But sometimes u know (i dont have anything agains u americanpsycho im just talking in general) some post look so silly but i try to hold dowm coz i think they maybe important to the person that post in them, etc.

Edited December 9, 2011 by eppursimuove

[Ralph]

Porn is not sex, it is pictures of what people who don't have much sex imagine it to be like. The situations depicted are so awkward and fake it would never actually happen like that in real life. This is because if sex were depicted accurately, it would be boring at worst and silly at best, relatively low in entertainment value.

Wondering if you might be gay from watching dicks in porn, IMHO is akin to watching a few episodes of CSI Miami and thinking that's what work is like in a forensics lab. The reality is much, much, more dull than the fantasy in both cases. Only a very few people in the world are exclusively straight or exclusively gay. Most of us are more or less bisexual although language and culture seems to have this built in expectation that you can only be gay, straight, or dead center bi. This does not match research. Google "Kinsey scale" to learn more about the research.

FWIW I am a gay male and have had two boyfriends that don't like anal including my current one. With a little imagination though it is easily possible to exchange intimate pleasure without necessarily focusing on a certain sexual maneuver. Again this is something you won't find in porn because there isn't a sufficient audience for it.

Personally I enjoy it, especially on the receiving end and condoms provide more than a sufficient barrier to bacteria. Plus with a little TLC in the shower even that part of the body can be kept clean. Oh and I occasionally watch straight porn. I am pleased to report that the Lavender Police have yet to bust in my door demanding I return my gay faerie dust. Hmmm... Lavender police busting in a door to punish a gay boy for not being gay enough. What could the punishment be? That's a porno I wouldn't mind seeing

Long post short - You can enjoy sex, and/or you can agonize over whether you are conforming to social expectations around this taboo topic. However you don't "have to" force yourself into a label for anyone else's personal convenience. Whatever floats your boat as long as it doesn't hurt anyone has been the only rule I've ever needed and it's saved me a lot of worry in this area of life.

[Elemenop]

I definitely think you might be bi-curious, nothing wrong with that. Though yes, you can be considered gay without ever having sex with another male or being in a relationship with one.

[infrared_radiation]

Porn is not sex, it is pictures of what people who don't have much sex imagine it to be like. The situations depicted are so awkward and fake it would never actually happen like that in real life. This is because if sex were depicted accurately, it would be boring at worst and silly at best, relatively low in entertainment value.

Wondering if you might be gay from watching dicks in porn, IMHO is akin to watching a few episodes of CSI Miami and thinking that's what work is like in a forensics lab. The reality is much, much, more dull than the fantasy in both cases. Only a very few people in the world are exclusively straight or exclusively gay. Most of us are more or less bisexual although language and culture seems to have this built in expectation that you can only be gay, straight, or dead center bi. This does not match research. Google "Kinsey scale" to learn more about the research.

FWIW I am a gay male and have had two boyfriends that don't like anal including my current one. With a little imagination though it is easily possible to exchange intimate pleasure without necessarily focusing on a certain sexual maneuver. Again this is something you won't find in porn because there isn't a sufficient audience for it.

Personally I enjoy it, especially on the receiving end and condoms provide more than a sufficient barrier to bacteria. Plus with a little TLC in the shower even that part of the body can be kept clean. Oh and I occasionally watch straight porn. I am pleased to report that the Lavender Police have yet to bust in my door demanding I return my gay faerie dust. Hmmm... Lavender police busting in a door to punish a gay boy for not being gay enough. What could the punishment be? That's a porno I wouldn't mind seeing

Long post short - You can enjoy sex, and/or you can agonize over whether you are conforming to social expectations around this taboo topic. However you don't "have to" force yourself into a label for anyone else's personal convenience. Whatever floats your boat as long as it doesn't hurt anyone has been the only rule I've ever needed and it's saved me a lot of worry in this area of life.

People say "porn is not sex", but actually, porn is depictions of people having staged sex. Just because it's staged doesn't mean it isn't real sex. It may be staged and scripted, but it still involves real people doing real sexual acts - for the camera.