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It's been almost a year now since the hallucinations started. Or at least since I became aware of them. Usually I hear sounds, a group of people whispering together or loud sirens. Sometimes there's a guy, he's a murderer and he's my friend, sometimes. The hallucinations might have started earlier, I remember strangling a girl for no reason.

I don't know how to tell other people about this, specially my mom, the only person who could actually get me help. I'm afraid she won't believe me, I'm afraid not to have the right words to tell her that her child is crazy. She already had a hard time accepting my social anxiety.

I don't know what to do. With the voices, with my imaginary friend, my mom. Should I seek for help alone? If so, how? I don't know what to do.

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Welcome to the community, skyentist.

This sounds stressful for you. I'm sorry you've been going through this. :( I hope you will not judge or label yourself. Is your mom supportive? I think it would be a good idea to let her know what has been happening with you. I hear you that it feels awkward and difficult sharing your struggles with her, but she may be able to help you get help for yourself. The support and care of family and friends can be so helpful and important during challenging times. All of us need support at times and it's good to take care of our needs. If you are in school, you might also reach out to a counselor there. What do you think?

I wish you wellness and healing, skyentist.

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Hi, Skyentist, welcome! :)

I can imagine it must be difficult to reveal this to your mom, fearing that she'll react inappropriately :(. However, that's probably the best thing to do in your situation. In case this attempt to be understood and get help fails, then you can seek help on your own - I hope your school has a competent counsellor...

But in any case, I imagine it would be better to educate yourself better about this condition and to choose some articles / texts for your mom - you'll give them to her to read so that she could better understand and also be comforted by seeing that there are people who help with this and others who can cope well with either "only hallucinations" or even schizophrenia (as an illness where hallucinations are one of the symptoms).

Personally, I would recommend you reading and seeing this (which doesn't mean that I think you have schizophrenia!! But it's something that occurs as one of the possibilities probably to everybody in the context of such symptoms, so it's better to know more about this illness, too, even if it's not your case!):

http://www.hearingvoicesusa.org

http://www.intervoiceonline.org

http://www.successfulschizophrenia.org

a short talk about successful life with mental illness:

http://www.ted.com/t...ices_in_my_head

a short talk about successful life with schizophrenia:

http://www.ted.com/t...al_illness.html

an article by the same woman:

http://www.nytimes.c...not-stupid.html

http://www.nimh.nih.gov/about/director/2013/schizophrenia-as-a-health-disparity.shtml

Your mom could also fear blaming and stigmatization, but there are many people who are supportive and some of them can so nicely explain why there's no reason for blame (or self-blame) or negative judgement:

http://www.huffingto..._b_1411502.html

http://www.madinamer...-schizophrenic/

(I don't know your age, but I hope those websites won't be "too much" for you... :o )

Good luck and take care!

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My school doesn't have a counsellor. The old one had, but she was terrible. My mom had - still has - trouble accepting my anxiety. She's not the supportive type and that's why I'm afraid to tell her about this.

Since I was a kid, I wanted to be a neuroscientist. I know about some conditions that have hallucinations as a symptom. It's hard. Yesterday a friend offered to take me to the emergency. Don't know if it's a good idea.

Thank you for replying, thank you very much indeed.

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I'm sorry you don't feel supported by your mom. Are there any other adults in your life who you feel safe reaching out to? Maybe they could help you to talk with her? Perhaps a family doctor could help offer referrals?

Neuroscience is a fascinating field for sure. I recently took a Biology of the Brain course and I found it very interesting.

Social anxiety is something that I have struggled with in the past. I went to therapy and it helped so much. Things can get better.

Take care.

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Well, I believe you should trust your friend and go to the emergency room. It will give you a good environment to actually inform your mother about your state, get professional help, and get yourself back in your own control. Very few have the ability to deal with these things on their own, so please trust your friend and the professionals you encounter. I only found a way to deal myself because I was in a situation where I either did deal, or let the grave have me. I do not want that for anyone, especially you because you are actually seeking help and support. If you need support during odd hours, and the forums are not enough, you can Skype me as I suffer the same ailment as you. I will happily assist you anyway I can.

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