Today I experienced an appetite for the first time in a while. Thirst too. I didn't realize I had lost them until they came back. I regret that I lost no weight with my appetite being gone since I was still eating because I knew I needed nutrition (plus you can take in a lot of calories through alcohol), but the difference is that I wanted to eat vs. thinking I should eat. Same with thirst, wanting to drink water is a different experience than being able to tell you're dehydrated and better do something about that.

Think my meds are finally together. I don't feel crazy nor do I feel drugged up. So that's nice. I can still feel the crazy in the background but that's okay because it's in the background. I can put it aside and function, which is quite exciting because it's such a sense of relief.