I passed my two-year anniversary without realizing!
It's kind of interesting, being two. For one thing, now I have permission to be terrible! :-)
Life has come a long way, in that time. When I came here, I was fantasizing suicide, searching the internet for something to help me. Having searched repeatedly under "mental health", I changed it pretty much by accident to "mental help", and here we are.
My wife removed me from the house the following February, and after a scramble, I set up a life alone that I've managed to keep barely-working ever since.
And it's tempting to feel like I haven't moved at all, in the past year, even though I did have to change apartments. The divorce process essentially stalled, because I felt that it would be easier if she and I agreed, and of course we weren't likely to do that. I've only just resumed negotiations to either agree or end it, in the past few days.
But in fact, much more has been changing than that, only it has been behind the scenes. What has changed, gradually, is my own outlook. I now know why I live, though it's not something I can easily put into words. Some might call it a kind of faith, but it would be hard for me to describe what it's a faith in. I guess I just feel like I know where I'm going, as a human now, despite how long it has taken me to find that.
I'd call that "worth it".