hey every1 (well those that look) ,

today was a pretty good day i suppose, went out to the store to get groceries like every saturday but today i saw a little boy from the elementary school that i have become very accustomed to, mm would know him as the shy kid from the bus i guess . haven't seem him in a while, so i went up to him and greeted him.

everything was fine, but throughout the entire little conversation that ensued, i felt a tingling sensation through my body that i am not really sure what it was maybe it's just because i was just so ecstatic to see him? i don't know.

but anyway, it was pretty good and i got to say hi to a friend.

didn't exactly get as much work done today as i was hoping, but i'll just have to catch up 2morrow

everything was fine' date=' but throughout the entire little conversation that ensued, i felt a tingling sensation through my body that i am not really sure what it was maybe it's just because i was just so ecstatic to see him? i don't know.

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i don't know either

hoping it was nothing, just excitement. i think ill stick with that theory

i suppose it doesn't matter.

also, and i should have said this yesterday, take anything i say with a grain of salt. 99% of the time what comes out of my mouth is mood dependant bs made up on the spot.

that's alright pseud, it's still valuable and can lead to other things regardless. there is always useful information in there.

just a quick contradiction note inf- you mentioned not wanting to ride the school bus, cus of being around all those kids. But you see a kid while he's alone, one who has caught your eye, already, and approach him to be friendly?

is this a kid your age or a younger kid? its tough to know what a 16 yr old classifies as a kid. if younger, why would you be motivated differently than on the bus?

i don't really know jj,

he is like 8 i think. i think i went up to him because his dad (or some adult) was right there with him, and basically i said my hello, had a little conversation, and told him why i wasn't going to be riding the bus anymore, so that he would have some idea that this was going to be an all year thing.

it does seem a bit contradictory though.

of course i didn't tell him teh real reason, said tht i was gonig to be busy this year with some things after school.

why would it matter what he knows? All u did was try to strengthen ties with him by being his friend in a different context. most kids would have said "Hey" as they walked by, and forgotten it.

it doesnt matter that someone was there with him, unless you wanted to gain the trust of the kid and the adults closest to him. Why would u be motivated to do that?

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i thnik inf should account for his own motivations and intentions.

yikes, i feel like i am being cross-examined for one little 2 minute thing

sorry. maybe just don't worry about it. doesn't matter.

why r u avoiding the question? im simply restating your own assersions and pointing out where there are incongruencies. its a simple question, with a simple answer. if your honest with yourself.

why would it matter what he knows? All u did was try to strengthen ties with him by being his friend in a different context. most kids would have said "Hey" as they walked by, and forgotten it.

it doesnt matter that someone was there with him, unless you wanted to gain the trust of the kid and the adults closest to him. Why would u be motivated to do that?

it matters what he knows because i wouldn't want him to keep thinking i was going to be there and expecting me. i wanted him to be in the know. i could have said a simple hey, but would that really make much of a difference since i have no intentions of seeing him for the rest of the year at the very least?

i had nothing along the lines of gaining trust of him or his parents on my mind. i don't know what you are thinking, but it sounds to me like you are putting me forth as a pre-planned person with an evil agenda. this has nothing to do with gaining trust, i just didn't want to leave him wondering.

none of it matters

it is what it is.

just a thing

nothing happened

sorry pseud, are you feeling alright?

i am what i am

do you want to talk?

about what?

i don't know. but anything that'll make you feel better if you are feeling bad??

i think you're confused

oh i know it. maybe its about time that i went to bed and got a bit of sleep

night every1, im heading off to bed. cya later on

hey all,

i went out today and got a TB test. gah i hated it, but i needed to to keep from failing that class i am trying to transfer out of

seems like they make you get one of those when you go to college anyway. you're just getting it out of the way early