Ralph all you can do is take it one step at a time. You already know you can do good. So next time just go an hour more- a day more- a week more. Maybe it isn't time for you to make a drastic change maybe it is but only you can say.

If your friends were/are really your friends then they will be happy to see you and welcome you back.

Just keep swimming

Ralph, since I joined this forum and started reading your blogs, I have noticed a tremendous difference and changes that you are going through. To me, those are very healthy and positive ones.

Sorry that you are still having lots of days when you feel depressed, empty and lonely. I know you miss your bf

You are very strong and extremely intelligent individual. I have faith in you. I hope you can also see how many positive things you have in your life.

Hi Ralph,

That sounds like a rough situation you find yourself in. I don't think I could move for work where I didn't know anybody. Maybe you could reach out to your friends through e-mail or Skype and see what kind of reception you get. It would at least give you some kind of indication whether you still fit into their world.

Reaching out to my old friends is what I will probably do. Thank you to all who read and for your support. It helps me a lot.