It's nice to have every once in a while a day of normal emotions, based on things happening in the present but not too high and not too low.
I'm trying to stop beating myself up and noticing I do it a lot. If I treat myself that way how can I know I wouldn't treat others that way? Inside my mind is every mean thing I have turned inward and could easily turn outward if I didn't know better. Practicing different habits of thinking, at least for now.