Jump to content
Mental Support Community

Blog Ralph

  • entries
  • comments
  • views




I'm so depressed I can barely move. Hope this doesn't last. Sleeping over 12 hrs/day and spending a lot of time in bed just crying. So I haven't been getting much done. Not that there is that much to get done. When you have no goals and no direction there just isn't that much to do. Luckily, no one depends on me. I tried to talk to my boyfriend but I screwed it up by complaining to him that he doesn't talk to me enough. This made him mad at me. Even with those closest to me I find some way to alienate everyone.

On the bright side my intrusive thoughts are gone for the most part. Guess the meds are helping with that. I wish they could do something about the loss of motivation and the crying, but maybe that's work I have to do in therapy.


Recommended Comments

I'm a little better now. I made it to work today at least. For some reason I always fulfill my commitments no matter how bad it hurts. I also saw my therapist today. Therapist said I need to stay busy. Ugh why is everything in therapy so much easier said than done? Duh I need to stay busy - try saying that to someone who can only get out of bed to end up laying on the floor.

What triggered it was trying to come up with a personal mission statement for my life and realizing I don't have one. I mean there is no point to my life except to be basically moral. Morals are the only reason I don't commit suicide, but that's no direction or vision along which to set life goals. I have nothing that I'm working toward accomplishing, no structure or anything to base important decisions on.

Link to comment

No goals in therapy yet. We talked about goals a while ago and never got back to it. Right now dealing with the current problem seems to be her priority.

I feel passionate about music, but I'm not good enough to make a career out of it. I haven't been that involved since the latest episode of depression (a couple years now). Why do you ask?

Link to comment

I think it's good to connect with things we are passionate about. Sometimes it might lead us to a purpose. I also think that embracing our passions bring us to life. Even if you can't make a career out of it, if it brings you joy, maybe it could be fun? I love music too. Did you play in a band? My dad was a drummer back in the day and my cousin played bass with Lenny Kravitz.

About therapy, if setting goals feels important to you, maybe bring it up with her?

Take care.

Link to comment

I used to play in a band, yes. I don't anymore because since I moved I haven't found anyone else to play music with. Tried Craigslist but only found super serious people who wanted to gig professionally and I don't see myself at that level without doing some amateur level first.

Link to comment

Join the conversation

You are posting as a guest. If you have an account, sign in now to post with your account.
Note: Your post will require moderator approval before it will be visible.

Add a comment...

×   Pasted as rich text.   Paste as plain text instead

  Only 75 emoji are allowed.

×   Your link has been automatically embedded.   Display as a link instead

×   Your previous content has been restored.   Clear editor

×   You cannot paste images directly. Upload or insert images from URL.

  • Create New...