I'm doing better, mostly I think due to meds. The depression is still there, but in the background instead of obscuring everything else. I am thinking more about what I want to do instead of seeing a bleak lack of future when I look forward. Still haven't figured out how to get there but at least I have a general direction. It's hard not to kick myself for not figuring this out sooner. It seems like it was in front of my face the whole time; I just didn't want to believe it. Well it's in the past so I can't do anything about it now. All I can do is try and figure out where I can go from here.