Was doing great on the new meds, but anxiety came back and turned into full blown panic Friday night into Saturday. Had stopped taking the meds some days before that though. There are some gory details to the panic episode that I will leave out for now. Important thing is I am better now, and have a whole new reason to be alive. No longer wishing for death. Over three months sober now. Social relationships could use some help and I am working on that, going out to a movie with a new friend later today. Of course it's a new friend that I would like to be a FWB but I'm building to that. Grateful to be above ground and for all the amazing good luck I have had in my life. Hope this continues.