i am very tired tonight... i think all the late nights have caught up with me. i don't really want to be home. it takes all my energy. work takes all my energy too. hmmm. i made my art choices this morning, i chose painting, print and graphics. i'm not so sure if graphics was the best idea. then i went to collect all my work that got assessed and when i walked into the room and seen it on the wall i felt so ashamed. it looked like crap beside everyone elses. i shouldn't be in that college. no way. all i want to do is rip all my pictures into teensy pieces and throw them in the bin where they belong. i want to hide forever. in my bed. i hate life because it's really stupid and everyone says it'll get better but really it won't. so what's the point?