it' s a feeling I have to disregard about 70% of the days. Maybe 100% of days right now.
I just feel like nobody really cares about me. Especially in the 3D world. Maybe I just don't try hard enough to help others and be jollie and caring and listening.
I just don't understand. I guess if it would be clear what I would have to do in order not to feel so lonely all the time, isolated, ignored, than I would do it... like a recipe to be applied.
Maybe I don't help others enough. Or when I do...It's not helpful enough?
Or maybe I am just 'lonely' no matter what. I heard about a woman who felt that way all her life even though she had a family and friends and was fairly successful in her career. Not that I have any of that, but I wish I would have ot missed that radio show. I wanted to see if there was solution because seriously. I am getting really depressed right now constantly getting cancelled on.
I know I didn't want to hang out with R anymore, but I think it was a survival thing.
I'll go for my 30 min of outside time...alone...again.
Hope you're having a good night. If anyone reads this at all. Ah!