Endlessnight Posted July 26, 2010 Report Share Posted July 26, 2010 I'm not writing here because I am afraid I might do something to myself; i'm writing because it's the only outlet I have and I feel so bad right now. I was at work when my nephew called me to tell me something; seems his father (my brother) has gone off the deep end and is shouting at everyone in the house, and it seems it's all my fault, as usual. I won't go into the details of why or what happened, wouldn't do much good even if I did, he gets these fits over nothing at all. I didn't want to come home when I heard him screaming over the phone as my nephew was talking to me. I wanted to die right then. I've been through this so many times with him. It's why we don't speak. I feel that he resents even the fact of my breathing 'his' air. I dont want to feel this way. I dont want to feel so worhtless and useless and like everything I do is wrong. As soon as I got home I ran into my room and I started typing this. I don't want to see him. I dont want to hear him shouting at everyone because of me. oh God please help me. I don't want to go on. I'm not writing this because I am asking for help. I just need to get it out. It hurts so much to feel this way. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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