Guy Out There Posted December 1, 2010 Report Share Posted December 1, 2010 I've just got nothing left, no more energy. I have reached that point where my life is demanding more than i can give it, faster than i can cope.What do you do when everything has failed? That moment you look back and realize you've dug a hole so deep nothing will aid your escape..People are clinging on to me, i hate it so much, i wish everybody would stop caring so i could have a guilt free death, well as guilt free as it can be that is... Killing myself would be not just cutting my own life short but the lives of those who care too. It is usually a good thing that people care about you, until you want a way out and then they simply form the walls of a prison, no way out.During my time on this site, i've had a few moments where i've thought about death, been at the edge, everytime i say 'this is it, no messing around i'm serious' and so far i am still here, there is however only so many second chances a man can give his life before it becomes broken beyond repair.I've been so unhappy these recent years, i once recovered (thanks to the best therapist i ever had) but sadly he is no longer able to treat me and everything came back. The four or five years since then i've just got worse and worse without any help.I guess what tipped it was the moment i realized i had actually crossed the 'insanity border', the point when you can no longer tell what is real and what isn't, beliefs have such power and influence over us (anyone religious will understand)... So your thinking "why not believe your going to get better then?" don't think i haven't tried that, i've been believing that i'll get better for 8 years and still i'm worse than ever, even making other peoples lives miserable.I think i'd better leave that there, i don't want to start and make anyone else unhappy, sorry if thats too late to prevent, just forget about me and you'll soon be fine..Look after yourselves and have a great life.. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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