smallstar Posted March 9, 2011 Report Share Posted March 9, 2011 I.don't deserve help or kindness. I have done this myself. I want to stop because this isn't who I want to be. But it's my fault, my decisions. I am this person because I made myself this person. I know I make poor choices. And I keep making them, over and over. Obviously this must be who I want to be because it's who I am choosing to be. Alot of alcohol, alot of coke, and a little heroin, all tonight. And I loved it. I deserve to die. I don't deserve kindness, but I am hoping for it anyway. I don't know what to do anymore. I am destroying my life and I'm not getting any younger, obviously. My decision making is getting worse with age. I'm sorry for being this person. I hate myself, yet I, refuse to change. What is wrong with me? I understand if nobody cares, I don't deserve your caring, but I hope for it anyway. I am alone and scared. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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