IrmaJean Posted April 14, 2012 Report Share Posted April 14, 2012 Don't ever lose it. It's always there, even in the darkest of darkest places if you open your heart and mind enough to see it.Seven years ago, I was 36 years old and struggling. I had a family member with addiction, no self-esteem, and no inner strength to do anything about it. Then I made a friend, we became close, and I lost her in a traumatic (for me) fashion. I was devastated, despondent, depressed...I thought, why love anyone when there is such risk? I will just give up.I didn't. I made a choice to go to therapy. I found an excellent therapist who was a great match for me. We developed a therapeutic relationship that was very healing for me. I learned that I will always choose to love because that's who I am. That experience put me on the path that I still walk on today. I discovered that my heart and mind is in helping others on the path. I've been studying for 2 years now in school and have been excelling. I have a dream to one day become a therapist myself. I may or may not accomplish that dream, but I'm going to put every ounce of effort into trying. If I can...for even one person...do what my therapist did for me, it would be worth everything. I cannot thank him enough for changing the direction of my life. I am so grateful and appreciative and he will always hold a place in my heart. My Counseling Theory professor just wrote to me and told me to bypass the last assignment because I had already mastered the material and earned an A. I feel so happy and proud of myself. I can really do this.A few days ago, I went and visited an old board that I frequented when I was feeling very down and down on myself. I did not even recognize the person (me) who was posting there. I am not that person anymore. I still struggle at times, but my self-talk is so very different now. If you treat yourself poorly, with no respect, care, and compassion, you will wither and wilt. If you are gentle, loving, nurturing, and encouraging with yourself, things will change little by little. Well at least, that's how it has worked for me. There are bumps along the path, but I'm on my way. I never lost sight of the light or the hope. I found my resilient self and now look at me. I'm the new Beth. You can do it too. Things can change. Things can get better. You can learn to love yourself, embrace life and love. We all have the ability and the potential. I believe that.Just sayin'...I was feeling inspired this AM and wanted to share. Hope everyone here in our wonderful supportive community has a healing day. Much love to everyone. ♥ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Join the conversation
You can post now and register later. If you have an account, sign in now to post with your account.
Note: Your post will require moderator approval before it will be visible.