i'm still awake. and i've still done nothing. i think i give up on painting for tonight. i just need to get this essay done.. i got a little distracted for a while but discovered some weird stuff.. i learnt about my karmic master number and debt number and karmic lessons and lots of other weird numerology stuff.. then when i found out my numbers i looked up the meanings and .... well basically i'm doomed..
apparently i abused my freedom in a past life and now i have to keep living until i make up for it. and there will be a lot of change in my life. can't wait for that..! the special tip it gave me is "temperance". it says i crave freedom [that's true] and i'm not a very committed person. i jump from one thing to another coz i think it will give me freedom but it doesn't.. it says i have to learn to be more disciplined and committed and to try find balance and structure. and if i don't fix it, i'll just be brought back into this life again when i die to repay the debt. DOOMED. but it did say i'd be good at writing mystery novels and that sounds good to me.
sorry if i'm talking crap. i'm really tired.