I've have a few short glimpses of contentment, enough to let me know that the seperation from my husband was the right thing to do.
It is bloody hard though becoming single after 20 years as a couple, a disfunctional one at that.
Despite declaring his undying love to me and begging me not to end the marriage my ex-husband is very actively seeking out another partner.
To be in the company of my daughter is as always a tonic, we have so may laughs. She is off travelling for the month of June . No.1 son has calmed considerably since his dad left. Ro, well he wanted the fairytale of a happy united family, but he wants to live with me, so that is good.
I feel that I am going through a process (the seperation) and have to experience all that goes with it - I know I'm not the first or won't be the last, but as I already said, It's bloody hard!