i wish someone could help me. i don't know what to do. everything is wrong and nothing is right.

i can't do anything when i feel like this. it's like i'm frozen up. it happens to me all the time now especially when i'm trying to do art and then i end up doing nothing because the feeling won't let me. this is stupid. it scares me because i really really really need to get my work done but i just can't do it. i am so screwed. this feeling is scary. i'm back to college monday. i am doomed.

hey blossom, that sounds difficult, I'm sorry you're having a hard time.

hi starry, how are you?

hey blossom, actually i've had a pretty good day, only one fight with my mom and she forgave me pretty quick and now my little brother is helping me clean my room, it's pretty bad, but I'm getting some new furniture so he's helping me clean and rearrange. I'm doing ok, don't want to jinx it though. What did you do today?

that's good that you're having a good day.

i just went to work and then came home and tried to do some art and i couldn't:(

yeah well I'm sorry you're having a bad day maybe you're thinking too hard on your art? I don't really know anything about art except what I've read in your conversations with others but it seems that your left brain gets in the way? I dunno what i'm talking about just thinking maybe if you could think a little less and just do it it would be easier? Sorry you're so blocked. maybe it's cause school is starting again so you feel pressured and it's getting in your way?

you're right starry that's exactly it. i don't want to go back:(

it feels as if i'm crying on the inside and i don' t know how to stop it. i need to stop it.

I'm sorry blossom

hmmm well i'm going back to college soon.. i can't say i'm looking forward to it but i'll try be positive. i just hate this feeling. i feel so unsettled. and i'm scared because i only have like 2 weeks before all my art is due up and i have so much catch up to do. i really need to pull myself together. last night was horrible. everytime i try do art it's like i shut down or something and i end up doing nothing because the bad feeling stops me.

oh..... i hate packing:(

I'm sorry for yer pain, blossom

Maybe you could try getting to a different part of your brain when you are stuck in a feeling. I know it isn't easy

i can't get to any other part of my brain because my brain is really small...

just got back to my other home now. it is soooooo cold. even colder than at home... our heaters are not working and the security guard person isn't able to fix them.

it is kinda horrible to be back here. 2 of my other housemates are back aswel. they're in the kitchen with some of their friends that came down with them. it is really awkward.

Yer brain is Giant with possibilities, blossomYY; it just gets a little stuck on a feeling sometimes.... I'm sorry, I know it isn't easy to get unstuck Especially when yer FREEZING!!!!!

nah my brain is teensy........!!!!!

but i really am freezinggg....

i am a little drunk..

hi blossom, how is your night going?

Hope ye got warm today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! [and yer brain is bigger than you think!!!!!!!!!!!!]

[sORRY STARRY I NEVER SEEN YOUR COMMENT LAST NIGHT.]

MY BRAIN IS THE SIZE OF A pea......!!

I'M STILL FREEZING THOUGH....

hey blossom, it's freezing here today too.

I just can't see

How you'd have a brain like a pea,

Or that you could just a little drunk be,

When it's clear to see

That you're bigger than me! :-)

I can make poetry.

hey starry and marky it is so so so so cold. i can't even explain how cold it is!!! all our heaters are broke and the man tried to fix them but they wouldn't fix:(

that's a nice poem marky..!!!!

well you're paying to live there, they kind of have to fix the heat. you should complain.

they are getting someone in to fix it tomorrow, he tried to fix it but he couldn't. yikes it's really hard to focus when it's so cold...