Can Depression Itself be a Terminal Illness?

[TimmyStan1967]

I have been depressed since 19 and am in my mid 50's.  I made another post about how I was diagnosed with cancer recently.  Before my cancer diagnosis I was miserable each day just going through the motions of life and after the cancer diagnosis I am thinking that the only cure of this depression is death.  Period.  End of story.  It's so frustrating when those on the outside buy into public service announcements that suggest depression is easily treated.  I've been to more therapists than I can count and have tried more meds than I can count with zero relief of my symptoms.  Why can't anyone come forward and say what no one wants to say?  There are some of us that can't be successfully treated and eventually we just get too tired to fight the fight.   I will not be seeking treatment for my cancer.  I just need to find the best exit strategy possible.  I look forward to eternal rest.

[jazz]

To answer your question, I think depression can be terminal because I've been to the funeral of someone for whom it was. However, I hope you can find the even the tiniest flicker of something inside or out that makes you change your mind. 

[IrmaJean]

I'm sorry that you are ill and feel a loss of hope, Timmy. I hear that you are tired. Depression can exhaust a person's resources. And cancer... I hope that you have loving support at home. I hope too that you are able to find some light. Peace and care to you. 

[Klingsor]

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[jazz]

Two spaces tell a thousand words, Klingsor...... 

Depression is so awful, sort of a combination of all of these...   but worse...

[Klingsor]

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[IrmaJean]

I'm sorry things are so difficult for you at this time. :'( I hear that you feel defeated.

Standing by you, Klingsor. I care about your well-being. I hope you are able to find some light. Sending you strength.

[Klingsor]

Thanks Irma, its just pointless. I post on here when I feel bad which is pointless. Some people cannot deal with the world and shouldn't have to be in it. 

[jazz]

Life with depression can feel pointless...and there is a lot of emotional pain to struggle with.

Is the new job causing stress, Klingsor?

Wishing you better times and some self indulgence....

[Klingsor]

Thanks Jazz. Yes the job is causing massive stress. I already want to quit. I'm basically a walking punchline, whatever that translates to in your world. 

"Hell is other people."

[IrmaJean]

Is there any way to get some space from your co-workers? I understand that isn't always possible on the job.

[Victimorthecrime]

Klingsor - you know I get it about job stress. I live in constant fear of being laid off.  

Have you ever considered meeting w a psychiatrist to try a mild mood stabilizer?  You can always ditch it if it doesn't work or has bad side effects.  Your employer will not know about it.  Just a thought brother.  

[Klingsor]

Thanks, victim. I have no idea what I need or what's wrong with me.

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@TimmyStan1967

I think some of us are wired to feel depressed no matter what.