I'm so sorry lil sis

can you have compassion for you for having been through horrendous times? (just want so much to help-- I know it isn't easy )

be gentle with you today

((((( hugs to you )))))

sorry big sis - dont mean to sound so blurgmph.

love the elephants

just in a weird place today and tryna meditate my way out of it - sheeze some things sure aint easy:( - oh well

I know its your 'elephant day' today but over here its really 'Boxing day' (just dont ask me what that means - coz I dont know)

btw, big sis - you didnt have to change what you originally wrote - coz you are totally correct about the negative self talk - thankyou, for helping me to stay aware of myself

{{{{hugs big sis:o}}}}

hmmmm, its ridiculous o'clock in the frigging morning - and not only am i not asleep - but i am very tired and want to be snoring my head off.

result :- one very stroppy suesue

ok finished whinging (maybe)

King Babar is here to order some order and rest!!! (hope things calm down real soon, sweetie )

I hope the rest of your day goes better, Sue. Take care.

I love King Babar

thanks big sis, thanks Beth

My day has been over for some time now - i wont bore ya with all the gory details, I messed up big time - hmmm, not good

im grateful that atleast now im aware again, and that today is through.

hope everyone is okay - sorry im not wiv it enough to check your blogs.

take care all

You ok SueSue??

not really, but im alive - i guess thats something.

very indigoblack

Sue, I'm sorry you're struggling. me too. Here with you.

((((( hugs to you, lil sis )))))

Thanks beth, and finding the gerties are well cute, thankyou big sis:o

im getting moved to another hospital tomorrow - oh the joys

hi sue, sorry things are so sucky today

why do you have to switch hospitals? That sounds like such an unnecessary hassle.

I hope that the rest of your day turns out ok, and by the way, I've meant to share something with you......... :P

what's going on, SueSue??

thanks

I kinda really messed up big time yesterday. things got wayyy too much. Im not proud of myself - far from it......

So now im waiting to be moved to a more secure mental hospital and am on constant watch again

Shit happens right?

Seems i never realised just how good i was at creating it

wont be on-line after i get moved.

so take care everyone

take us with you in yer heart, SueSue!!!!

I'm so very sorry things became too much :P

Yah. We're with you no matter what, Sue. Something as insignificant as not having an internet connection can't keep us away. :-)

Please take care of my little sister for me.

thanks big sis, and big bro

im actually begining to feel really intimidated by the thought of going to this hospital - guess its for the best though.

it may not be as bad as im imagining - imagination is a weird thing, sometimes its a joy and can help - and yet at others - i wish i could just hit the off switch

hope that your okay.

take care of yourself sue. know that i stand with you and am thinking of you. be safe

thanks Mary

hmmmm, guess this is gonna be my last blog entry for quite some time. Dunno what to say, dont want it to be all morbid and depressing, even if that is how im currently feeling......

Soooo, I suppose i get to go on a new adventure tomorrow - well it could be an adventure - its not written anywhere that adventures have to be in far off lands, or places of natural beauty. So yep - Im classing my new cell as a adventure - so there !!!

Hope that all of your adventures (where ever they may be - or wherever they may lead) are a journey toward peace and happiness

Take care Y'all

Go slay yer dragon and find yer treasure! :-)

{It's not written anywhere that you can't do that from a different hospital room ...}

oooohhhhhhh - do i get to be a pirate

that'd be proper :cool:

{ true, however this one is gonna take a lot of visualization - im gonna be in a cell with nout init. if nothing else its a good place to do some serious soul searching - i may even find out where i left the on/off switch to my brain, maybe even locate the OFF switch to the voices and vultures - now that would be a perfect start to my year }

Sue, take good care of yourself. You'll be in our thoughts.

I am always amazed by how you are able to support others with such kindness and compassion when you are hurting yourself. Thank you for your support and friendship.

please be easy on you, SueSue :P I'm so sorry you will be in isolation. Can you take us with you lil sis? I know things are no way no how easy : ( : (

I'm scared, I guess a lot of people are scared of the unknown when waiting for it. So its all cool. I think isolation and time to truely meditate is what I need. Maybe this is for the best.

Always look on the bright side of life, da du, da du, da du da du du