Nothing really major has happened to make me feel this way. Just the usual crap. My mother was driving me to my friend's house and she kept making stupid negative comments about me and I asked her to stop being so negative and then she told me what a big mistake I was, etc, etc. That's all. and I've been like this ever since..

You obviously don't understand why I asked you to tell us about it.

It's so that we get to tell you what a crock of bullshit it is for someone, ANYONE, to tell you that you're a mistake.

Pardon my Français ...

That counts as major, with me, and you don't deserve it.

Thanks but maybe I do deserve it. I obviously am a mistake. I wasn't made for this life so I dunno why I'm here!! It would save everyone a lot of bother if I had never come along.

Hon, my depression talks like that too.

I don't agree with yours.

But you're the one who has to decide. None of us can beg you to stay. You have to choose it.

I can tell you, I'm not bothered, at all, by you. People are hurting you, so obviously you're hurt.

You know, once my parents let it slip, without really meaning to, that my brother and I were both "surprises". Mom was 42 when she had me, a year older with him; they weren't really trying to start a family.

But I'm not a mistake, and neither are you. That's not the way it works. And who gets born equipped to deal with this life? Look at a baby. It may be equipped to feed itself, as long as someone brings a breast nearby. Other than that, it's the parent's job. You don't blame the baby.

There are no mistakes Invisible. You're here because you're meant to be here.

I don't know what to do anymore. I feel numb.

Well I can't stop crying.

My mother pretty much told me the same thing.

Permission to be angry at both your mothers?

I feel like crying too but I can't..

Let's all go over to smallstar's imaginary safe place and have some chocolate.

Can you be angry?

You have a right to be.

I am angry on the inside. I'm always angry..:mad: I wish there was a real safe place for us to go...

How do you let it out?

There are lots of safe places.

Anywhere where you don't believe what she said sounds safer than where you are now.

Well we can take Andrea's cue and breathe and listen to the wind. The world is much bigger than our mothers' worlds.

I don't let it out. It stays inside me. Oh, I don't know anymore. I'm tired of it all.

Yes, I know it stays inside you; I was the same way.

That's what tears you apart.

What can you do to get it out?

I wish I knew!! What did you do to let it out?

Heh. Well, you got me.

I never claimed I did it well ...

But I have heard that a primal scream (yelling really loud, where no one can hear you) or pounding a pillow can help.

Sorry, I stepped directly into an "I dunno" situation. I'm sure someone has some better ideas.

I let the bigger world in

How do you do that? The whole world looks black and white to me. I can't find an escape..

Is it raining, today, Invisible?

Can you just go outside, take a walk in the woods or the fields and watch the insects make friends with the flowers?

Yeah it rains every day over here.. I don't have the energy to leave my room right now but maybe later if it stops raining I might go outside.

you should read twilight invisible, actually Eclipse to be exact.

that always helps me

You make Ireland sound like the tropics. Is it cold, too?

Sometimes it's fun to go out in the rain, as long as you have what my English aunt would call a "mac and wellies".

I love twilight!!!! I've read the books twice so far.

Yeah, it's cold aswel.. I hate rain so much. It makes my hair go frizzy.