It's not the day, it's the life, and it only gets worse, everyday. Really doesn't matter though.

Of course it matters, sweety. You don't deserve it, and it's our job to poke you until you realize how important you are.

*poke* *poke*

I think you're great starry and you deserve to be happy! I would give you some of my hyperness if I could...

Thanks, I'll get over it, or I won't, either way it's just the way it is.

Starry, we can find our way together! there has to be a way..

I think I need to keep poking ...

Star, anything can be changed, given the right leverage. Just give yourself time to gather the tools you need.

Ok, keep poking!

Let me know if you find one, cause I certainly haven't.

You're just not looking in the right places, honey. Believe me, the tools exist. Just because you haven't found them is no reason to get discouraged.

I don't want to be discouraged, but it is hard not too when nothing works out. I know it's because of something I'm doing wrong, but I just don't know what else I can do, I don't think there is anything.

Well, okay, maybe you're missing something. I do that all the time, and eventually I see it, right there under my nose where it's been waiting for me the whole time. But kicking yourself while you try to find it does nothing to help you find it, and when you finally do find it, you're worse off because someone's been kicking you the whole time!

Try to imagine a hug with words. That's what would really help you right now, and words are all I have.

Thanks.

And you're right, I need to stop being so mad at myself, I think it does stop me from trying to do what I need to do, but it is just very hard to stop.

And I'm sorry Blossom, I didn't mean to write about myself. Let's talk about your bad day, I'll try not to be negative about it, I wasn't trying to bring you more down, it was an accident.

That's ok staarry, I don't mind! I just want you to feel better.. and you didn't bring me more down. We can all write about ourselves here together!!!

Star, why did you rush in to help Blossom, that day when she was feeling bad?

That's what we're all here for, on this site, and in this life.

Whoa, I could probably go into preaching, if the whole "lounging around on the internet pretending to work" thing falls through. ;-)

Thanks guys, I just felt guilty that's all, I just didn't mean to start complaining just because I'm cranky that's all.

It would be really silly to start complaining when you're not cranky! :-P Sounds like the perfect time, to me.

Please don't feel guilty starry! It's ok, i'm a little cranky too so we can all complain here!!! Are you home from work?

oh, well than, shall I continue?

I'm only kidding

No I'm still at work.

My boss said overtime is a free for all, so I will work as much as they'll let me.

Only thing is, I didn't call home to let them know I wasn't coming, that should be interesting when I get home

I hope your dad doesn't shout at you...

Me too, but chances are I'll get to hear all about how stupid I am.

Well, just remember that you're not really stupid.. have you ever shouted back at him? Sometimes I shout back at my mother when she makes me really mad!!!

No, seriously, if I were to shout at him, I think he might actually hit me, I'm not even kidding. He would come after me. Besides that, I wouldn't anyway, as soon as he yells at me I'm automatically crying, I wish I wouldn't, it makes me so mad that I let myself cry in front of him, but I can't help it, it just happens automatically, so he screams, I cry, he tells me I'm disgusting for being such a crybaby so now he can't even look at me, which just upsets me more than I go upstairs, same thing everytime.

Well, I guess you're probably better off not taking my advice then...! I wish he would respect you and treat you like an adult. You deserve to be treated with respect. and you're definitely not disgusting for being a crybaby!!! I'm a crybaby too:)

So, okay, you don't think yelling back will work.

You hate crying and going to your room.

Are there other things you could do?