Aw, don't be sorry, milady. You haven't once been a pain in the ass to me, and believe me, my ass tells me any time it feels pain. And you don't bring me down: it's funny to spend an afternoon with the exclamation point lady.

I'm not going to be able to convince you, probably. But slapping you for no reason is just wrong. It certainly doesn't make you bad.

I'm sorry you feel so down, hon.

Thanks, but I'm still sorry. I don't have a place in this world.

Aw. All that means is that you haven't found one, so far.

And you do have us, for what we're worth.

I'm glad I have ye but it's not fair that ye get stuck listening to me.

Is it okay if I decide what's fair for me? :-)

After all, it's not fair that you got stuck with the parents you have, either.

Yeah and look how miserable they make me.. I don't want to make ye that miserable.

But they're mean to you and you aren't mean to us.

That would be the huge difference here.

Yeah but I'm very negative person like my mother.

No, really? :-P

So am I, or at least, I used to be. Partly because of people on here, I don't see things that way as much, any more. But the change is recent. 'carrion' is making me look at some of my early posts; the negativity is clearly visible in them. That's because, at that time, I was still suffering.

I would suggest the same is true of you. And because suffering is temporary, that's why I have hope for you. Because I found a better place, I know you can.

Ach, I saw that before your edit.

I don't think you're negative, in that way. I've never seen you insult anyone on here, for instance.

Anything about you that you want to change, you can change. You don't have to hate the whole you, in the process. Another thing I've learned, just this year.

It's nice that you have hope for me. but there's no guarantee that I'll ever change. I could stay like this forever. I'm glad that you found a better place, you deserve it.

There's only one guarantee we get in life, and that's that it doesn't last forever. So it makes sense to take a chance on hope. I didn't ask you for a guarantee and I don't have one to offer. Do you feel like trying, anyway?

Yeah I'll try. but I dunno how to make myself better.

yeah blossom , that's the one thing you need, is to make sure you keep the hope, cause without it you have nothing. I don't know how to get better either, I just try to keep faith that I will.

I keep forgetting that my name is blossom, Ok, I'll try stay hopeful even though everything seems black and white right now. How are you today?

I'm alright, still working on bills, but we're almost done so that's good. We're finishing up today but a lot of people got them in the mail yesterday so now we have all these people at the window as well, but surprisingly everyone's been well behaved so far, keep your fingers crossed for me.

Ok, my fingers are crossed, I hope you have a good rest of day!

thanks.

And I hope you start to feel better

me too. I have to go to dinner at my aunt's house now.. it's gonna be so awkward..

Why "awkward"?

Just tell her about the bonfire you've got waiting at home.

because we'll all have to sit at the kitchen table like a proper family. We never do that here.

Why is that awkward? Now, when you ask someone to pass the salt, there's actually someone there. :-)

I'm just being annoying to shake you out of this mood, you know. I'm much less annoying when you're happy. I think.

Most times when I'm sure something's going to be difficult, before I even try it, I turn out to be right. I read somewhere that,

"Whether you think you're going to have a bad day,

Or you think you're going to have a good one,

You're usually right."

So if you like being right, you might as well assume it'll be a good day. :-)

I usually have dinner on my own. you're not annoying. I'm the annoying one. Oh, I soooooooooo don't wanna go...............

We could have an Annoying Contest.

Hon, this is me trying to get your mind off it. Work with me, here. :-)

Did you draw yourself as a lightbulb, yet?

If you don't want to go just say you're sick, that's what I would do.