Nah,no plans Starry... it's already after 6 over here anyway so the day's nearly over...

Oh, yeah, well so why is today so crappy? (If you want to talk about it)

There's no real reason....it's just one of those days where everything feels hopeless...

I was ok this morning when I was talking to finding here and then after that I went to try make a kite but it didn't work and then it started raining and then my parents rang and asked me what I was doing. so it told them I was making a kite and then they got mad(!?!?!?) and said I would get electrocuted or something and then all I heard was blah blah blah. then my mood went really down and I covered my head with a blanket and fell asleep. now i feel like sleeping again... at least it passes time..

I understand, yeah, I am having a crappy day too, I wish I could go to sleep, that sounds about perfect right now. Maybe you can think of some other fun crafty thing to do, maybe keep your mind occupied anyway, I know that helps me, when I busy myself when I'm feeling particularly bad, than maybe when your done you won't feel as bad.

I'm just not motivated to do anything...I never am anymore...I don't even enjoy art as much as I used to. I feel like I'm wasting my life away and I can't stop it.

well, to be honest, that's pretty how I feel, like I have wasted too much time and now it's too late. But, from what I understand, it's never too late, we can always learn and change. You aren't wasting your life away, things will get better believe it or not, I think patience is what we need.

I guess you're right Starry! I just wish it was easier.. I wish I could start therapy right now and that way I could get better quicker...........

I know, that's why I think that in the mean time it's important to try and occupy yourself. I don't know about you, but for me if I allow myself to keep dwelling on these things I wind up way more depressed than I was to start with. I read something somewhere about how it can be beneficial to pretend you're someone else. Not completely, but like if you pretend, like you're acting, that you are a happy person you will feel happy (er). I think with some effort it could work a little bit at least.

that sounds cool, I could pretend to be a rockstar ( a happy one ) or else I could pretend to be a horse.. who or what would you pretend to be??

oh, that's way too a right brained question for me blossom

Whoops sorry starry... What things did you enjoy doing when you were younger?

Ha, don't be sorry silly. I was just joking around, I mean I still don't have an answer, but, you know.

And, I dunno, what did you enjoy doing?

I was a big "Barbie" fan, ha!!! I used to love horseriding aswel but I stopped going when I was about 15 I think. and I used to read a lot and do lots of art.. but I've lost interest in everthing now..

you just need to find new things, I'm sure your art motivation will come back though. Isn't that how artists work? Like one day you'll just be like ah!, and off you'll go creating cool stuff?

yeah i s'pose you're right!!! although I don't seem to get too many "ah!" days anymore! I wish I could have an "ah!" day everyday.... I'm gonna need to be motivated enough to meet all my deadlines in college...

ah! Ha, yeah, I guess so! Is it an art school you're going to?

Yep, it's one of the best ones in Ireland and it's supposed to be really strict so if my work isn up to scratch, I'll probably get kicked out.... Hopefully I'll be more motivated by then!!! Are there many art colleges where you're from?

I have no idea, I think the art people from around here end up at some school in philly. You won't get kicked out! I'm sure that will be motivation enough, the fact that it's school work.

I hope you're rightt!!!!!!!!!! the standard is really really high in this place so I'm not sure whether having so much competition is going to help motivate me or not!!! I hate competition...

I hate competition too, but you already got into the school, that should tell you something? Like, that you are good enough

You'll be fine, ladybug. You just need to get out where there's more joy ... That goes for both of you. As someone almost a quarter century older than either of you, you haven't wasted enough life to quit yet. I'll tell you when. :-P

There's a beach where I'm going to college:)

Oh that's nice blossom, will the weather be warm when you get there?

Nope, it's hardly ever warm in ireland.. it'll just rain as usual!!! I should really learn to like the rain!!!!! The area where the college is is really dangerous.. lots of people get stabbed there!!!

Why can't they just get stabbed at home?