i'm scared. i don't think i'll ever be able to get better. it scares me how fast my mood goes up and down. i can't stop it from happening. even if i start therapy that won't make me better because i'm not able to put my feelings into words. i can't even write them down here. that's how stupid i am. i don't even know how to help myself so how can anyone else help me? i'm broken and i can't be fixed. i feel so sad but i don't even know why i'm sad right now. everything's so mixed up inside me and it's so confusing. i feel like i'm crying on the inside. i feel like crying on the outside too but there's no tears. i wish i could be helped.