hi blossom

sorry youre feeling so crapppy tonight ,

we all like you, we think the world of you hun, you are not a waste of space and neither is your life.

was the party realy that sucky hun.

im still on line for a while if you want to talk

take care

your friend, one of many here

sue

hi jj. no the party didn't suck... it was just me. i can't enjoy anything anymore. i think i'm going to bed now but thanks for replying. thanks Jj.

ok hun, hope you feel better in the morning

take care

Jj

hey blossom, sorry you had a crappy night

I just wanted to mention a little something about the alcohol. From my experience, being depressed and drinking just don't go well. At first yeah it's great, but as you know at the end you wind up feeling pretty depressed. I mean sufficiently more than before you started drinking. I always end up an absolute wreck when I get drunk, don't even want to say how it leaves me. They say alcohol is a depressant, right? So at first you feel great, invincible but eventually you have to stop drinking and for whatever reason it leaves you so much further down than when you started. I don't know, I'm just thinking it might be a good idea to not drink when you're already feeling depressed cause you know it won't really help.

Anyway, you really aren't a waste of space. I don't talk to you cause I feel sorry for you, I talk to you cause you're my friend, I care about you. Besides that you're nice to me and make me laugh even when I think nothing could make me laugh.

Well, I hope you feel better tomorrow and have a good day.

thanks star

i don't know why i bother to drink it. the same thing happens everytime. it's stupid. but i'm a nobody if i don't drink.

i so don't want to go to college. today is art history day..

i wish i could disappear.

Mayyyyybe it's time to try therapy:confused:

Hope you feel better today artful dogg!!!!

thanks finding. i'm not sure whether i'm going to try therapy anymore. it's too scary and i don't want to go on my own. it probably wouldn't help anyway.

hey blossom,

have you ever thought about group therapy, or doing art therapy, or even music therapy, not all therapy needs to be frightening or even scarey, sometimes it can be a little fun too. just a thought.

hope your ok today hun , and feeling a little happier

take care

Jj

hey Jj,

i don't think i'd like group therapy. that would be even scarier.. i'm still sad:( i can't seem to help it. i keep thinking bad thoughts. i hope you're ok too Jj.

:-P

THIS is a waste of space.

blossom's blog translator says that blossom is a waste of space..

May I talk to her please?

I mean, taaaaaallllllllkkkkkkk?

I, personally, can't think of a better use of a Blossom-shaped piece of space than to fill it with her.

blossom's blog translator says you can talk to blossom now if you want.

The person I want to talk to is the one who keeps saying she's a waste. YKW, are you in there?

she's probably in there somewhere.

Yeah.

What did you need her in there for, again? :-P

This is your brain. ("This is your brain on YKW." Sorry, I couldn't resist.)

It's your own private club. You don't have to let anyone in that you don't want. It's sound-proof, even. You don't have to hear a single thing that goes on outside, if you don't want to.

*now picturing the bouncer for Blossom's private club*

*yes, he has bunny ears, why do you ask?*

maybe i'm turning into ykw. i think i am. that's so scary. i've always been scared that i'd turn out like her.

'Course you're afraid of that.

It's not happening yet, if it ever will: you're talking to yourself, not others.

In fact, my guess is that the most damaging thing might be that you'll end up spending all your time trying not to be her, and you might forget to be you.

That's what the therapy would be for, to get past all the stuff that's been said about who you are, and get to the person who's actually in there. I can assure you that she's pretty amazing. Because somewhere inside, we all are amazing, even YKW. It's all the stuff we put on over that beauty, to try to protect ourselves ...

Go meet yourself, please, little one, and then see if there's anything to be worried about.

i don't know who myself is so i can't forget her.

i dunno how to meet myself..

Ask a therapist, sweety. Ask 'finding', she knows some ways. Believe me, you're in there.

ok i'll try find myself.

When you breathe deeply and close your eyes, and all the thoughts melt away, and you feel peace and quiet, that's you.

That's just one way, that I know, and I'm not that skillful yet at going to the next step, of letting myself make the decisions, but it gives me faith to know I'm always there.

Convinces me that, though my space is bigger than yours, mine isn't wasted, either. ;-)

:)you sound like finding.

i'll try.