Blossom

Im so sorry hun, you are going through soo very much.

Youre moma is wrong, she has NO RIGHT to of ever hit you, NO RIGHT to say nasty hurtful things to you or about you,

It makes me so upset that there are still parents out there that have no respect for there children.

You are a lovely person, and deserve so much better.

i dont know what to say, but know that i care, and that we all love you. Blossom you are our friend and you are a

Big brave dogggggggggg

were here for you hun,

and we are listening

Jj

thank you Jj.

i wish i could help you feel better hun,

i just dont know the words.

i hope your ok

Jj

don't worry, i'm fine. i'm just reflecting:)

its all cool blossom, try not to reflect too much on the bad things though coz it will get you down.

take care hun

Jj

i'm just trying to figure out how i got depressed..

hey blossom, how's it going?

hey starry, it's fine!

how are you today?

hey I'm alright, just woke from a nap a little bit ago. I didn't mean to sleep then, now I'm afraid I won't sleep tonight. It's so rainy and cold and dreary here today. I don't wanna get out of bed!

Other than that, you know, it's life, whatever, I don't care for it, not much I can do about it. Is Ireland rainy today?

nah i don't think it rained.. it was just cold that's all.

it's ok, ya don't have to get up! is it not nearly your bedtime? i'm so sleepy..

No, it's not even 8:00 yet, and I just slept for a few hours, I'll be awake for a while now.

I don't have to get up, but I really should. I didn't feel good earlier and then I woke up with a nasty headache. Lame.

Do you have to work tomorrow? I just had a dream that I overslept and woke up at 9:30am when I was supposed to be at work at 8:30am. I was glad it was just a dream

sniff some lavender and you'll be ok:)

i have a nasty headache too!!! but i think mine is from lack of sleep.. i should really go to bed...

no work tomorrow!!! but i have lots of art to do:(

that's so funny starry! i've been having lots of strange dreams lately.. i think i better go to bed now!!!

goodnight starry, i hope you can sleep tonight!!!

good night blossom

no worries, I'll sleep for sure.

she won't leave me alone.

she always makes me feel even worse than i'm already feeling.

i don't know what to do anymore.

i hate everything about me and my stupid life.

i hate sundays but i also hate every other day of the week.

there's nothing i can do because it'll just stay the same.

i don't want to have to live anymore.

"confused" is exactly the word, blossom. That dynamic is confusing and very hurtful .

The facts are, you will need to build a life for yourself, bit by bit. You may not think you can, but it gets a little easier once you get going. You're totally right that the situation at home won't change. You will need to make your own home. I know that sucks. [personal experience]. Hey your home already has something going for it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! a lava lamp!!!!

I

HATE

MY

LIFE.

i'm a bad person.

my sister wanted me to watch a dvd with her but i told her i was too tired. i am too tired.. i think she's upset now. i'm a bad sister. i barely ever spend time with her. i'm in college all week and then when i come home for the weekend i have to work and then when i finish work i'm always too tired to do anything with her. i didn't mean to upset her. see, i'm just as bad as ykw.

off i go to bed now. nothing new there. i'm lazy and stupid. all i do is sleep. i hope i NEVER wake up. this life SUCKS.

i HATE it.

if i had lots of pills i'd take them right now. that way i'd be sure i'd never ever wake up.

that's another thing about suicide. at least you get to decide when and how you want to die.

looks like i woke up.

i always wake up. that's the worse part. i hate waking up. god i sound like a brat. i want to do something really really really "bad" that will make ykw REALLY REALLY angry!!!! i'll think of something!!

oh my... it's so quiet here today..

i so don't want to go back to college:( i know i say that every sunday but i really don't... i'm not sure what to do about college. i don't like it atall. i've been there like a month now.. my parents think i love it. they'd be so angry if they knew i didn't like it. . if i were to drop out now, daddy would get some of his money back at least but if i wait, it'll be too late.. i'm not sure what i should do..

hi ya Blossom

how are you ?

have you got to leave for college soon ?

Jj

hey Jj!! i'm ok, just trying to think of ways to make ykw angry:)

yeah i'll be leaving soon probably...

how are you?

whos ykw ?

sounds like fun can i join in ?

im existing kinda

what have you planned for ykw so far we could work on it together if you like