i wonder would i have turned out like this if i had a different mother?
or would i still be the same?
maybe it's not her fault.
maybe it's my own fault that i'm a screw up?
i wonder what i could've done differently?
when i was small i thought the way she acted around me was normal and i accepted all the horrible things she told me about myself. and she used to hit me really hard sometimes but daddy made her stop . i thought that was the way all mothers acted around their children? but then i realised it wasn't normal:( and i began to kinda fight back.. whenever she started complaining about me and telling me that i was useless i'd disagree with her. it made her really really angry that i was standing up for myself and she started saying worse stuff about me and that made me even sadder. and now i've stopped standing up for myself again.. i just ignore her when she says nasty stuff. but it still hurts me.... there's just nothing i can do about it. it's always going to be like this:(