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soooo confused...


Blossom

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i wonder would i have turned out like this if i had a different mother?

or would i still be the same?

maybe it's not her fault.

maybe it's my own fault that i'm a screw up?

i wonder what i could've done differently?

when i was small i thought the way she acted around me was normal and i accepted all the horrible things she told me about myself. and she used to hit me really hard sometimes but daddy made her stop . i thought that was the way all mothers acted around their children? but then i realised it wasn't normal:( and i began to kinda fight back.. whenever she started complaining about me and telling me that i was useless i'd disagree with her. it made her really really angry that i was standing up for myself and she started saying worse stuff about me and that made me even sadder. and now i've stopped standing up for myself again.. i just ignore her when she says nasty stuff. but it still hurts me.... there's just nothing i can do about it. it's always going to be like this:(

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I'm ... sort of "both". It's been a weird day.

Sometimes I think I could be "there", all I have to do is take one more step.

Other times I feel like I'll never get there.

See my blog for more words. ;-)

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Competition doesn't have to be war. Sometimes it pushes us to be the best we can be.

It can certainly be taken too far, though. I grew up with a younger brother who was bigger than I was, from before I can remember. So we competed quite a bit, and I didn't always play fair, being smaller. It was very difficult, sometimes. He was gentler and calmer than I was, but then, he could afford to be, being bigger. So I often tried to hurt him, or have some effect on him. And he certainly could get angry, I just had to be extra-mean to him.

We outgrew it, mostly, and towards others, there's no one I'd rather have at my back. But there are still some painful spots.

Life is full of challenges. You can't get mad at the challenges, you just have to do the best you can with them.

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i think it's different for each person..

competition does nothing good for me. it intimidates me.. that's part of why i hate college so much i think.

when daddy was small his younger brother hit him over the head with a hammer when he was sleeping:) dunno why that just popped into my head!

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yeah it's nearly as fun as debating whether vegetables have feelings or not:)!!!

i've never really noticed if it's lopsided.. but it probably is! he was unconscious for a while after i think!

bye malign, i hope we can all be HAPPY:)!!!!

we're watching the lion king in college tomorrow:)

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