hey starry, i have no energy:(

i'm just home from work. i feel so lifeless..

how are you?

I have no energy either but I just realized that it's friday so I'm so excited to sleep late tomorrow (although I'll probably wake up early just cause I don't have to) how was work?

you're sooo lucky you can sleep late tomorrow...

work wasn't too bad..

that's good. It's sooooo cold here it's ridiculous, I just went outside to smoke and almost died.

Do you have any plans for the weekend?

that's a sign that smoking is bad starrry!!!!!

i'm just working that's all. whatabout you?

no plans, well actually, I am thinking about seeing if I can take my cousins kids on Saturday, they are having this old fashioned Christmas thing in town, so that would be cool. But other than that, I just want to sleep and hopefully be left alone

(I know smoking is bad, I'm gonna quit one day, I'm pretty useless at quitting bad habits apparently but one day, yeah.)

I hope you're work goes ok

that would be cool! i hope you can take them out.

(i'm sorry if i made you mad starry:( i was just messing)

no, you didn't make me mad at all blossom, I'm sorry if it sounded like I did, or if I was rude or something.

I hope I can take them too. I want to take the baby (wellactually, she's almost three now!) but I want to take her back to story book land, but I think it will be too cold this weekend, but we didn't get enough time there when I took them a couple weeks ago.

ye have a story book land????!!!!!!:eek:

Do you have story book land in Ireland?

No!!!! what's it like??? i wish we had one...

It's like a theme park, all the rides are kiddie though and the theme is stories, like alice in wonderland, and that kind of stuff. At Christmas time the whole thing is lit up with thousands of lights and that's where the "real Santa" is and the kids go and talk to Santa and get their picture taken. I really like it there, when we were kids we went every year at Christmas.

awwwwwww.....that sounds like fun....!!!!!!!!!! i want to be little again..........

yeah, it's nice to watch how excited the kids get. Especially nicolet, she was so in awe of Santa, I was so proud of her not being afraid and talking to him and sittingon his lap. She's verrrry shy and doesn't talk to anyone, but she did so well and she was soooo excited

and the other night I was over at her house and she asked me if we could go somewhere again and I said, where do you want to go? And she said I want to see Santa and go on a ride again. How can I take her back?

awwwwwwwwwwww starry that's so cuuuuuuuuteee!!!!

she loves you:)

I wish she was mine

i wish she was yours too. do you get to see her much?

I've been seeing her more often lately, her parents are all too eager to get her off their hands and I'm all too eager to take her

maybe you could adopt her!!!!!

starrrrrrrrrrry i'm soooooooooooooo coooooold...................

no more therapy til after christmasssss!!!!!!!!

ha they wouldn't let me adopt her, that would take money from them! yay a break from therapy! I'm trying to figure out if I should stop going altogether. I need to figure out if I'm getting anything out of it. Are you gonna rent a movie for movie night?

i don't think i'm getting anything out of my therapy..but it's free!! yeah i think i'll rent out the last word, what about you?

I will probably rent both cause I have nothing else to do. Have you ever heard of either one? Yeah, free therapy, at least you're not losing anything. What is making it hard for me to decide what to do is that I feel I need help but it's my own self who prevents that from happening because I just can't talk so I don't know what to do.

i heard of the cartoon one.

i kinda feel that way too...

but your dr isn't making you feel very comfortable, is he?

well I don't really know if he makes it comfortable or not because I am so uncomfortable with people to start with, I can't trust what I think because for all I know he could be a great doctor, you know? I don't believe it would make a difference who the dr was. For instance, if I were to meet you in person, I probably wouldn't be able to talk to you. It's pathetic I know, but I don't know what to do about it, I can't help it, it's very strong anxiety that takes over.

I'm running to blockbuster, I'll be back in like 20 minutes.