hmmmm i get like that sometimes too... especially around people i don't know well. my therapy lady says it's because i don;t like myself and i feel as if everything i say is useless. oh i dunno....

ii gotta go sleep now starry but i'll see ya tomorrowwwww

sweeeeeeeeeeet dreams:)

that makes sense, what you're therapist said. I find that when someone reminds me of myself I feel hate towards them, it's because I hate myself. Goodnight blossom, sleep well

i'm so flat. i have no energy left. just want to curl up and die:(

i'm so cold. i hate everything. i hate being me. i hate myself i hate everything about me. i hate how i look i hate how i act i hate how i feel i hate every single thing about me. i feel ugly today. it's all so pointless. nothing to do just sleep:mad:

it's so quiet here:(

i'm sulking right now:( i'm so bored... this is a stupid saturday night. i should probably just go to bed.

borrrrrrrrrring..

hey blossom, sorry it was a boring day. I had my cousins kids today. I hope tomorrow is better for you.

Hi Blossom,

Sorry your feeling so lowper. miss ya hun, erm and yeah..... Im not sure I like your avator. Can we have the diet coke one back ~ please. (or even the flower one) You are NOT STUPID You are blossom, our big brave dogggggggggg and we love ya

hi starry i'm glad you got to have the kids.

hi Jj, i've missed you:(

everything's so bad here right now. daddy and ykw are still fighting. they havn't spoken in about 4 weeks. ykw tried to talk to daddy this morning and he went crazy and then i got the blame because he thinks i asked her to talk to him. i hate this. it makes me want to die. now we all have to go to church together in a little while and play happy family.

i wish i could close my eyes and forget everything. i don't want to go to church with them . the car journey is always so awkward. last week as soon as we got inside he went in one direction and she went in the other. it's really confusing because then me and my sister have to choose between them. then other times we all sit together like a "happy family" and that's just as awkward because it's all a lie. i think i'm cracking up even more. i don't want to live anymore.

hey blossom,

sorry ykw is being horrid

hun its difficult when parents fight, you are in no way to blame. its wrong for them to take things out on you :mad:

were here for ya hun, Im just sorry I dont know how i can help you, but I can listen, sending you a big hug.

Hope your ok Blossom, and that things get better for you soon, and I wish just that you want to live again, ~ please.

We kinda need ya blossom, your like a little sis to me, and well you deserve sooooo much better and to be soooo much happier.

Now get yerself some diet coke, grab your fav teddy, and wipe your tears, coz things will get better soon hun

thanks Jj, you're so nice to me..

i hope you're doing ok.

hey Blossom,

We have no reason to be anything but nice to you hun, your a lovely person. Its just a pity ykw, isnt nice to you aswell.

Im doing ok, concidering. (cant spell sorry) I hope to be back on the p/ward during the week, although they have said I can have my laptop here now ~ like yay

Hope your ok hun

take care

Jj

i'm glad you get your laptop back!!!! it was so quiet without ya here...

Hey you

how are ya hun ?

hey Jj!!! i'm ok just really tired and kinda anxious about some stuff. how are you?

what ya anxious about hun ?

have you gotten college in the morning or have you broken up for xmas now ?

me, well, kinda in a bit of pain, bored senseless on this ward, and actually miss bbeing in my old room on the other ward

oh lots of things. i'm just worried because i have lots of art catchup to do over christmas but i also have to work so it will be kinda hard plus i just realized i left all my paints in my other home so i'll have to try go up and get them.. and then i'm worried because i don't think i'll ever be able to be properly happy. yeah i'm on christmas holidays now.

what kinda pain are you in?? i hope you're ok and i hope they let you back to your old room...

oh blossom,

you sound stressed :eek:

hun, it will be ok, just do a little of your artwork each day and it will soon be done. Maybe you could get a lift to your other house to pick up your art supplies.

sorry you still have to work ~ bummer

I will be ok, im only gonna be in this ward a couple more days, (thankgod), then I can go back to my old room on p/ward ~ yay. I miss my old room

have you got work tomorrow ?

i have lots and lots to do... i'll probably have to get the bus up someday. i have most of this week off work and then i'm working for the rest of the time i have off.

no work tomorrow thank god..

are there many other people on your ward?

well this ward, has like 4 seperate, large rooms, each with about 8 beds in them, Im sharing with like a load of really sweet old people

Infact most of this whole ward is elderly ~ do ya think maybe there trying to tell me Im OLD :eek:

They are really sweet, when there not SNORING, and keep asking me if I want anything,

awww well at least they're nice!!!

well....you're not that old... !!!!!!!!

something really weird just happened. a growling noise came from up the chimney:(

maybe it's santa claus?