well i have no college tomorrow or tuesday so i won't be going back tonight:( what's the experiment? make ykw mad? ok.

i just woke up from a scary dream:( i wish i had no feelings. i don't want to feel anymore. i hate life.

[well I was going to say put on your safety goggles and tell ykw she is hurting your feelings:o]

I'm sorry you don't get to escape soon, Blossom.

[she hasn't really said much to me today. i dunno. i just want to hide somewhere forever and forget everything.

Can you picture yourself having a job and a place of your own?

i already have a job and a place of my own and it still sucks:(

I'm talking about after college. You can have more choices about where you live and what you do and who you are with. You can set up your home in a way that soothes you. You can pursue hobbies you love. Hopefully your job will give you a sense of purpose. Those are all things to work toward so life won't feel so sucky

that's if i'm still alive by then.

my life will probably always be like this.

i think my laptop is almost dead:(

anyway, whenever i find something that makes me happy it gets taken away from me so what's the point in trying anymore? i hate everything. i'm bad.

i don't know what to do. now she really is being mean to me. i'm not sure how to do the experiment:(

well I think it's kind of like malign says, you got to put it in her pile. Realize that you have no control over her, she's not your fault and try to not let her affect you. I know it's easier said than done though. I'm just sorry she's so hurtful to you.

hey starry, yeah i'll try that but it's hard because she kinda puts her pile on top of mine and it sucks.

i hate this stupid life:mad:

hey blossom sorry it's a sucky day.

hey starry

i should probably be used to it by now

maybe tomorrow will be better

gotta sleep now bye starry

well, i've only been awake for about 10 minutes and she has already started making me feel bad. i don't think i can do the experiment..it would just make her madder anyway. she really really doesn't want me at home. she keeps hinting that i should be back in college where i belong. but i don't belong there. i don't belong anywhere.

my laptop is almost dead:( i'm almost sure it'll die soon and then i'll be computerless and won't have anyone to talk to anymore. i'll miss ye:(

everytime i move it it turns off. it's really frustrating, i'm scared i don't want it to break:( i dunno what will happen.

new rocker boy is still talkinnnnnnn to me and he's a dj and he works in my favourite shoooooop!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yay!!!!!

hey staaaaaaarry!!!

i think my laptop will die soon though..

Hey, ladyblossom.

Lots of laptops die from over-heating. Can you put it on a tray or a desk, so the vents on the bottom have room to breathe?

hi marky, i had a dream that you were sad today. are ya ok?

i dunno if that's the problem. everytime i move it it turns off on its own. it's really annoying. daddy says he will operate tonight but that could make things even worse...

i think i'm in LOVE.....

Well, other it being Monday, I'm pretty good, sweety.

What was the dream?

Mmm, it can be difficult for even people who know about the insides of computers to operate on laptops ... I knew a guy when I was younger who assembled computers for other people, but that was back in the good old days. :-)

It could just be something loose in there. Hopefully not a laptop mouse, though. Those things can take your finger off. ;-)

Uhoh, LOVE in all caps is definitely serious ...

hey blossom, is it the guy you met at the weekend ?

young LOVE is sooo sweeeeet